The difference.

Well there's one thing that I was reminded of recently. "You can't love a stranger one bit." & if you've ever came across with a thought of wanting to know someone, that's called infatuation.

Many of us are actually blinded by the system of the world. God gave us eyes. & yet its quite hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind.

2 Corinthians 4:18 : 'So we fixed on eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but that is unseen is eternal.'

In this case, patience is key in a relationship. Understanding one another's likings & dislikes. Understanding one another's strength and weaknesses. And most importantly, understanding one another's heart. 

Colors.

Just felt the need to blog after being inspired by some bloggers talking about their perception of lives. Hmmm well, people that I respect the most are those who have a mindset of their own, decisions and convictions that stands firmly.

Count myself a fortunate kid. Been to 3 countries within 2 months. Turkey, Thailand and the most recent trip, Perth in Australia. All the trips taught me different kind of life values. Nonetheless, the trips showed me a similar thought. That is our parents were the one that provided it all for us. And the only reason why they could provide us with such luxurious privilege, it's because they have the financial capabilities to support us.

Anyhow I'm kinda ready for the next phase of life, which is NS. After loitering around for like 4 months, not doing any activities that is actually really productive, I guess I'm all set for it :)

17 more days.

A parachute mindset.

I've been reflecting a little bit recently. On about how a person's personality could make an adverse impact in the society. In most cases, a person who leads an easy-going, flexible and un-conscientious lifestyle finds himself having a wider social circle of friends. 

I was reminded about something that struck me hard during my trip in Turkey:

Touching down at a random place.

Yep, this is one golden experience that I'll remember. Before boarding on, we were taught that once the balloon starts to float above a certain feet level, the wind would be the subject making the decision as to where it would take the balloon to it's final destination.
Sometimes we just need to let nature takes its course? Man alone can't change the world. The harder we try, we'd only find more disappointment along the way. This is because greater expectations comes with greater sense of self-actualization. 


& the less rigid we are, we'd actually find ourselves being more adaptable to different clauses of environment. A happier human being.

When you've nowhere to go.

We'll build a fortress

To Keep them out

And in a world gone silent

I'll be your sound

And if they try to hurt you

I'll tear them down

I'm always with you now

Sometimes listening to trance just takes you to another realm. 

It just gives you some glimpse of hope in the hopelessness. 

It teaches you how to embrace the serenity and the artwork of life. 

Despite the pressures we've been facing in this current society, there are bound to have an outlet of support we can always turn to. 

& I believe trance, can always be one of them.

Rhetorical.

Just a little question: Are you a happy or sad drunk? 

When the alcohol kicks in, my mind starts thinking even more. These expectations, goals, pressures, desires, triggering cues of such images keep residing.

What if you fail big time?
What if you don't have the money to spend what you want?
What if you don't make your family proud?
What if you stop what you're doing halfway and ended up being a douche?
What ifs.. All the what ifs.

You may termed this as 'insecurity'. But I guess it's a form of positive motivation to move on with life. 

Recently, I just got this revelation. That life is like an highway. 

This world is bleak, dark and ruthless. Nobody in this secular world gives us respect unless we first respect ourselves. None would bother to support us unless we prove our worth.

Nonetheless, we gotta stay strong, keep our fingers crossed, clench our teeth hard. It's because in this highway, there's no such thing as a red traffic light there for us. There's no room for complacency, but only space for progressing forward.

You left me there hanging.

It's no one's fault.
There's none to blame.
I was really glad there were some meaningful moments that we managed to have.
Cherished it a lot.

But there's one thing for sure.
Only the gullible's never move on with life :)

Swaying images

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind,images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick.

Well I'd never want to see you unhappy,
I'd thought you'd want the same for me.

Goodbye, my almost lover.
Goodbye, my hopeless dream.
I'm tryin not to think about you,
Can't you just let me be
A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover



Just got back from Genting.. Well, this song was on replay for like countless of times on the coach, back & forth.

Got me to reflect some of the stuffs for the past 3-4 years. How life passed so quickly. How I once was a freshie in poly. & now, finally, graduated..

I really do feel that God has blessed me with so many things in life. Studies, BFL, Financials.. However, somehow I feel there's something lacking. Perhaps it's the way I view the day-to-day, common & typical issues of life.

*It's always the i-don't-give-a-shit kind of attitude that turns people off i guess.



Sometimes a love relationship is like a burning cigarette. We inhale the tobacco into our lungs, & we'll feel the kick. Once it's burned to the brim of the filter, we've lost the chemistry.

& you'd wonder why the supposed special one is treating you differently all together.

It thus made me believed why making decision based on logic & rationality would be a better choice instead on human emotions.

AND BECAUSE OF THIS, people in school think I'm some cold blooded, competitive & hypocrite kinda person. Well, I don't blame them because I know this problem lies within myself.

& Maybe this is why, A, you're feeling that way, uncomfortable.

Sometimes solutions ain't so simple, sometimes goodbye's the only way..