Succeeding.

I don't wanna be the one, the battles always choose.
Cause inside I realise, that I'm the one confused.

I realised that, it's an interesting tatic to put yourself in a very very pessemistic position to stir up motivation in life. Take studies for an example.
Like condemning or rather, picturing yourself in the worst scenerio.

"What if Im earning 3k sgd a month with just a damn diploma? What if I can't get into local uni with a mediocre A level results?" Yeah, phrases and thoughts like that. You can really mix and match the adjectives and so on hahaha.

Think that it's alright because at least it brings down our ego. But overdoing of it will reflect as an act of self pity. I've seen quite a number of facebook status updates mourning on how patethic their lives, grades are.. etcetc. Hahaha, hate to admit that I'm guilty in indulging such deep thoughts & reflections but I'll never post exact details on the happennings and such.

Had a tonn with BFL over at Ernie's house last night. Because all of us are in poly, we had a lot of common topic to touch on.

Some of us were talking about life and successes @ the 3rd floor's bedroom. Well, the defination of "Success" varied widely among us. Mine was being at the best of each individual's ability to achieve the maximum potential's result. While some of them viewed "success" as being joyful, happy-go-lucky kinda life. It caught me thinking at that point of contact. It served as an reinforcement to this phrase, "The lower the expectations we have, the higher the satisfactionary level we will have in our lives."

But somehow it pains my heart to see some them so unmotivated. I mean, having a goal in life is the most fundamental step they could do to pursue the slightest happiness they could ever find, ain't I'm right?

I've a heart to heart session over @ starbucks with one of them like 7 months ago. Knowing what I wanna do is the sole reason why I've made that statement months back. You see, when you've found a purpose or vision, you'll tend to be motivated to achieve that state/position. Yearning to move on to that phase of life rather than hogging on what we currently have.

So yeah bro, hope you understand where I'm coming from :)