Its easier to replace pain with something numb.

Woke up at 7am.. Yeah! Managed to reach punctually for first service.
The presence of God was so thick and yes, could felt his love. Its an indescribable
feeling. Perhaps only you'll know when you encounter him yourself.
And it ain PSYCHOLOGICAL. Because back then before I was a non-believer of christ, I felt his presence only after attending church for 8 consecutive weeks w/o believing that he exist.

After 1st service ended, slacked around.. Ate lunch and stuffs.
Before 3rd service started, took some pictures..
AND YES, Zoie was so short that I've got to bend my knees so much that it almost touches the floor LOLS.










Service ended, they talked about bgr again..
From what they say : To choose a compatible companion, you need to be emotionally free, spiritual maturity level the same. Bla bla bla lol.

Headed to hougang to pay respect to laopek. It was a christian funeral eh. Sang amazing grace in chinese version during the funeral service. It was a nice experience.
Everything ended at about 9pm. Went home after that.

Sorry S! First quiz scored 5/8, 2nd quiz scored 0! :(
Quiz dont matter, what matter is the friendship!

Life about yesterday.

Friday- Ytd.

Reached sch at about 10.45am, met
S along the way at the bridge of school!
Coincidence hahahaha. Said hi, and moved on.

Headed down to clark quay ytd to meet up with brothers after sch ended.
Ate bak kut teh! I'll give it like 8/10 for it haha.
Next time I'll bring more friends there, nice environment too.
Except for one waitress, gave us attitude.

Funniest part of the day was, Dillion wanted to ask for the menu list.. Instead, he said, " xiaojie, gei wo mai dan."
LOLS. Haven't even eat anything yet, wanna pay for food haha.
ASKING FOR BILL AND MENU IS A TOTAL DIFFERENT THING MY BRO.
Your chinese sucks, lawls.

Hmm, after that slacked at the river side of clarke quay, watch the beautiful scene, laughed at the people who were on the thrill ride.. Its something like space shot in Genting lol.
Talk cock, sing song play mahjong. It was 9.30pm, decided to train home.
Dillion and Yuan stayed back while the rest of us went home.

I know there's something in the wake of your smile.
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yea.
You've built a love but that love falls apart.
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark.

Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why,
But listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
The feeling of belonging to your dreams.

Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why,
But listen to your heartbefore you tell him goodbye.

And there are voicesthat want to be heard.
So much to mentionbut you can't find the words.
The scent of magic,the beauty that's been
When love was wilder than the wind.

Listen to your heartwhen he's calling for you.
Listen to your heartthere's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why,
But listen to your heartbefore you tell him goodbye.

Listen To Your Heart - DHT

EMO SONG RIGHT. HAHA.
Just wanna give a shoutout to those in r/s, cherish the one you have right now (:
Work towards the r/s instead of thinking of breaking up heh.
Love is about COURTSHIP, AINT ABOUT DATING.
Everyone should have the mindset in a r/s, once you're in a commitment with the other party, you work towards marriage. If you're just playing, dont fucking call that love. THATS LUST.

So yeah, all the best to everyone out there.

Early morning.

Basket, woke up 5am in the morn.. Reached sch at 7.30am.
The bloody comp lab wasn't open till 8am. zz.
Managed to complete my final peice of the csa proj.
Its so bloody laychay. Cos i dont have microsoft excel at home.

Hmm. Done csa with WeiLin today after sch ended.
Learnt "=VLOOKUP" format finally hahaha. Went through trials and error with WL.

Thanks bro, for the help. Its a blessing to have such a nice classmate (:

Went to eat lunch, chatted about life with WL.
After that, went home.

Study period, no dota for me.

What a long day.

It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey and I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to You

Many days I've spent Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know You'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to You

Sometimes it seems no one understands I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will You break down these walls and pull me through?

'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control

It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to You.

Journey - Corrine May

What a great song huh.
Even when times are down for us. With God's LOVE, we will always pick ourselves up and stand strong once again.

Hmm.. Tonned at Dillion's house ytd with Ernie. Played dota, slacked, joke and most importantly, did some of my csa work. Slept at 3am..

Woked up at about 7.30. Roughly 4 hours of rest only!
Washed up and left Dillion's house.. Met up with MengYun and Kellyann at boonkeng's KFC.
Ate, laughed ( as usual for the 2 girls ) and then headed to Orchard.

Reached there, collected our stuffs for flag day. Hmm, the fund raising is for the children's association.
Sky and I walked from Orchard to Bugis! On the way, collected a lot of donations from people on the streets haha.

After flag day ended, head towards the new church.
Well, it was good! Love the atmosphere. Its so much better than the main church.
Its going to be everyone's raw effort to bring the church up. So yeah, I guess its going to mean a lot to me when the church really grows.

2 girls = bomb.

Came in late to CSA LAB at 9.20am. 20mins late hahaha.
Well, had csa mock test. I was like staring onto blank space when the discount thingy appear.
"=vlookup(blablabla)" shits -.-

Decided to buy the csa book to revise on it. Test are coming up soon.. Gotta mug really really hard for it. At least 3.7/4 for gpa for this semester.

Well, had econs lecture.. Class was super noisy. Pity the lecturer leh. During tutorial for econs too. I guessed he can't control the class ba. Too "soft hearted" alr.
Econs is all about understandng ba. Memorise blindly leads to nowhere lol. Practice in econs is inevitable too.

Class ended, saw Ann and Emi outside the bus stop. They were like, "Aiseh! Going out with the bunch of girls." Lol. I was like, bo bian what. Class majority are girls haha.
Sia la, in the bus.. Sibei buay tahan. Michelle kept immitating everyone in class. When she immitated Kellyann, she was like having a constipated voice LOLS.

Reached tamp, Kelly and Jacq printed their photos at the photoshop.. Went pasar malam to grab some food haha.
After that, walk around tamp mall, slack slack walk walk. And the girls laugh laugh again -.-

Decided to take Bus23 home with Kelly instead of Bus22.. Well, that route was much slower i guess. Need to walk quite a distance to BoonKeng mrt.. then 133 home. Took me like 1hr 10mins. Whereas my usual route like 50mins or so. haha.
But still, enjoyed the ride home.
Crapped a lot with Kelly, the retard haha.

When He gave his life for us, He suffered and died.

Hmm. class as usual today. Studied on econs till 5.30pm after sch ended. Supposed to study till like 7pm.. But then someone pangseh! LOLS.

Bused home after that. Wanted to approach the police station to report my missing donation card. But was too lazy lol. Maybe tmr or smth ba hahaha.

Yesterday Sky, Michelle, Elynn, Kellyann, MengYun and I went to watch "Angels & Demons". Quite interesting.. Give it like 4.5/5 bites for it. The epic moment was when the "God-particle" exploded on the air. The sky became like super BRIGHT.
YEAH! Catch it guys, its a nice show (:

GRATS MOTHER JANNA ON ACCEPTING CHRIST!

Hey mother, Just wanna wish you all the best in your life.
Now that you have Jesus in your life, hope that you'd always cling on to him no matter what happens. I'll be your "Son" forever, hopping to gve you advices in times to come.

This is the greatest decision you'd ever make.
So yeah, LOVE YOU~ Stay close to God no matter what.

Love is a hard thing to express.

Cruel to the eye
I see the way he makes you smile
Cruel to the eye
Watching him hold what used to be mine
Why did I lie?
What did I walk away to find
Ooohhh - why
oooh - why

I can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

Curse me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Curse me inside
I won't forget, no I won't baby,
I don't know why (don't know why)
I left the one I was looking to find
Ooh - why
ooooh, why?

I can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

No I can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air.

Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life
That's all I'm breathing for
Ooooooohhhhh.

Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side.
I can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air
There's no air

Breathe easy- Blue

This song makes me think twice of having a r/s lol. IS school really that small? Or is it just fate.

Btw, projects are pilling up. So yeah. Its time to work doubly hard.
Like what Dr Tan shared today,
VISIONS are plans that are put into actions.
Plans without actions are known as DREAMS.

Vision or Dream? You decide.

Its all about bringing Him glory.

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You
With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are the voice that calls the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

I'll trust in you
You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name.

Till I see you - Hillsong.

AMEN!

Lord God, keep me strong in your arms.
I don't need respect and praises from pastors, leaders, church members.
But respect from my fellow non-christian friends. I wanna be someone where they would know that Christianity is about having a relationship with you, God.

Let my actions be the voice of Your word. Let Your glory shine in my achievements.
For You have changed my life.

I wanna be someone that is selfless, a friend to everyone instead of being an enemy.
So I'll learn to be giving, understanding.

I wanna be someone that would plant churches instead of burning them down.
So I'll work hard for my studies, my future career.

Keep me in Your love. So that I'll persevere in any trials and complete the race.

As the upcoming obstacles gets tougher.

You don't remember me, but I remember you
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But who can decide what they dream?
And dream i do...

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live, to breathe
You're taking over me

Have you forgotten all i know
And all we had?
You saw me mourning my love for you
And touched my hand
I knew you loved me then
I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me

I look in the mirror and see your face
If i look deep enough...So many things inside that are just like you are taking over

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me

I believe in you
I'll give up everything just to find you
I have to be with you to live to breathe
You're taking over me
You're taking over me.

Taking over me - Evanescene

Hmms, sch ended at about 1pm. Did the csa thingy with Jeremy with the help of bestie aka Kaye~

After completing it, Jacq came into the comp room and said, " Eh steady la, save me a copy of your work." LOLS, slacker.

Parted our ways, revised on POManagement at the library for like 2hours plus. Hmm, felt that sense of achievement haha. Kaye caught up with me after she printed the lecture notes. THANKS BESTIE FOR THE NOTES. (:

Ended at about 4pm. Grabbed Mensa's "Fish Special meal". It cost 4bucks and yet it taste so heavenly. I'd give it like 20/10 sia.

Met Vivien at starbucks about 5plus.. She helped me on Marketing. Geoferry is her lecturer in SIM too. My goodness, that joker.

Hmms, got a better view on marketing's environment. Thanks Vivien for taking the time (:

Bused home at about 7.15pm, somehow felt that loneliness emotion.
Love sick or what? I don't know lol.

Don't wanna be a lukewarm follower of him.

I grew up in sunday school
I memorized the Golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led Him up to Calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And I don't know what to say
But i'll never be the same
Because he changed my life when He became...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that i'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want live for Jesus
So that someone else might see that he is...

Everything to me
He's more than a story
more than words on a page of history
He's the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything
And looking back over my life at the end
I'll go to meet you saying you've been...

You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're everything to me
You're more than a story
More than words on a page of history
You're the air that I breath
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
You're everything to me
Lord, you're everything to me.

Everything - Avalon

Great song! He is the reason why Im a christian (:
Not anyone, but just him.

Hmms. Lets review about on the past few days. Haven't been blogging haha. So just wanna type on a quick review on what happened during the weekend.

Wednesday - 6th may 2009.
Hmm during the break of lessons. 17/25 of class 1R02 went to lunch tgt. Great huh? Its like a whole gang eating tgt LOL. We had pepper lunch.. Some of the pictures here.



After that, ate our stuffs and yeah, head towards the toysR'us. Whatever you spell it as haha.



Thursday - 7th May 2009.

Had our second outing LOL. My goodness, didnt know class were so enthu about it haha.
This time round attendance was better. 22/25 ppl! lol.

Went to Subway at Tampines 1 for lunch haha. Was quite nice. Yeah. Its on the previous post. So yeah, read on it haha.



United RIGHT. 1R02 rocks~


Saturday, 9th May 2009.

Went to hougang to cut hair with daniel. After that headed for cell group at 7th floor at the Odeon.
Played games like follow the leader.. pointing game and stuffs. Quite fun haha.
At first, the thought of having cell at 7th floor ( aka carpark) was ridiculous. Thoughts of thinking it would be noisy in the carpark.. etcetc.
But then during praise and worship session, it changed my mindset. God is really everywhere. Seriously lol. Its an open carpark. So yeah, it was quite windy haha.

Hui Yi shared about walking strong with God. She gave us 3 points.
1) Do not be ensnap with sin
2) Do not be involve too much with the current affairs on this world.
3) Do not be over burdened by the workload of God's work.

Yeah, kind of agree with the 3rd point. If not one of my bro wouldn't feel left out ): And find that church is tiring for him.

Cell ended, went to suntec to meet mum and sister. Bought 2 cards and a mug. 1 for my mum, the other for auntie mei. Its cool to have 2 mums hahaha.
Checked my eyesight.. Was impressed because my eyesight didnt deteoriate at all after much gaming~ haha.

Sunday, 10th May 2009.

Alrights. Dota-ed and stayed up late till 3am on sunday morn. Woke up at about 11am haha.
Washed up and stuffs, headed on to Church.
Pastor Dan shared about sex o.o
I guess it was overated sia.
Sex means sex la. Why so tense when sex is being mentioned in church haha.

(to be continued.. rushing back to my serangoon home haha)

Back home haha. Was at my dad's place just now. So yeah.

As i was saying, sex is just a word that describes 2 person of the opposite gender having an intimate time tgt. So yeah.

PS: Its time to bring friends to church again.. Had enough of rest i guessed. Was inspired by some of the church members. Reason is because, as a friend, I want them to know that Christ exist and its a life transformation if they ever experience God.
Some say Christ is only real when one believe its real.
But I disagree because, I felt the presence of God even though I didn't believed he exist. Amazing isn't it? Yeah.. It takes time to have a breakthrough with God. If not I wouldn't take like 7weeks to feel him? Yeah.

Love is not a fight, but its something worth fighting for.

Playground schoolbell rings, again
Rainclouds come to play, again
Has no one told you she's not breathing ?
Hello, I'm your mind, giving you someone to talk to...
Hello...

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me
I'm not broken
Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide...Don't cry...

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here, all that's left
Of yesterday...

Hello- Evanescene

Not bad, had class outing for 2days in a row hahaha.
Ytd we went to century square for Pepper lunch.
Today was subway haha.
Treated Kaye with a 50% off from her combo meal. (Besties must treat each other right? Next time must buy me to a dinner at a buffet restaurant~)

Right now, I think using a LV bag is cool. Thanks Kellyann.. Hope to have more opportunities to carry it for you haha.

Went back to school for marketing tutorial. Lesson was quite dry, saw a few faces on the desk haha.
Nothing much, took bus 8 with Pamela, dropped at Trinity church's bus stop. I took bus service no. 24 towards AMK, while Pamela took towards the other direction hahaha.

Motivated to score for exams.

I'm so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave,
I wish that you would just leave.
Because your presence still lingers here,
And it wont leave me alone...

These wounds won't seem to heal,
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time cannot erase...

When you'd cried i'd, wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream i'd, fight away all of your fears.
And i've held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.

You used to captivate me,By your resonating light.
Now i'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams.
Your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me.
These wounds wont seem to heal...This pain is just too real,
There's just too much that time cannot erase.

When you'd cried i'd, wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream i'd, fight away all of your fears.
And i've held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone,
But though you're still with me...I've been alone all along.

When you'd cried i'd, wipe away all of your tears,
When you'd scream i'd, fight away all of your fears.
And i've held your hand through all of these years,
But you still have all of me.

My Immortal - Evanescene


Enjoyed today's POM class. Miss Tan was quite funny hahaha.
She said, " St Greybriels" instead of St Gabriels. -.- lawls.
Breaked for 1 hour.
Attended the second tutorial, microecons. WONG NEE TAT'S LESSON LOL.

Hais, felt kind of useless sia. The tutorial's homework were very simple, yet Im so careless lol.
Must open my eyes bigger the next time, simple stuff also blunder. If not dreaming of getting A for econs also xiang de mei.

Class ended, nth much happened. Followed Kaye and the gang to the library, they ordered their CSA book.
After that, bused home at about 3pm.
BORING.

Happy Birthday Shaun!

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it's not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
Well it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, inside of me
Inside of me, yeah inside of me, inside of me
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
I'm only a man looking for a dream
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
And it's not easy…It's not easy to be me

Superman - Five for Fighting.


Haha! Met up with the bros a serangoon mrt at about 11.25. ( sorry for being a lil late haha)
Hmm slacked till like 12.30 because Charlie was so damn late lol.
Bused down to east coast park and headed straight to Macs.
Ate something light and then played at the arcade at the second floor of one of the building.

Got bored of arcade games, so we decided to head down to the beach lol.
At first I didn't wanna get into the sea.. Because I didn't brought any extra clothings and stuff.
So JuanKen and I slacked about at the chairs, looking at the rest of them having fun in the water.

*PICTURES WOULD BE UPLOADED ASAP. ITS SO DAMN FUNNY!

After that, Dillion got "burried" with tonnes of sand by Ernest, Mingkit, Shaun, Junyuan and Joel.
That attracted me to help them out with the prcoess of burying Dillion hahaha.
WOW, after that came Mk, Dillion and Ernie. They carried me and threw me into the sea la.
Like wth lawls! It was fun, though haha.

After that Joel left us for Church first..
It was about 6.30pm alr. Everyone washed up and headed to Carls Junior for Dinner.
Took us like 30 mins or so from the place where we settled down to Carls Jr. Long right -.-

Played and eat burgers. AND MORE OF REFILLING OF DRINKS. Because Carls Jr offer freeflow of drinks.. so yeah haha.
Slacked till 10pm.. Bused home with some of the guys :)

Just wanna say :

Happy Birthday Shaun! Brothers for life <3
We will always be there for you whenever you're in need :)