Senseless Novelty.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

This songs reminds me of the commitments in life.

What else more when your friends are brewing up a love novelty in your life? It is fun and exciting to be part of a love story. But what if things don't succeed?

Looking at things STATISTICALLY, relationship wise at this current phase is really tough to maintain. Things just come and go.

Sometimes we don't really need to be in a love-relationship to be loved. But like what they all say, to experience and be experienced in it.

On my knees.

The pastor was talking about having wisdom in life.

"A good outcome is always better than a good income"

I was reminded about this phrase that was mentioned 3 years ago.

& my eyes were closed. I found myself kneeling down at the fountain of life. When I looked up, it was Jesus. And he said with those beautiful eyes, "Son, drink this water of life, and you will be blessed with the wisdom that you need."

Some people say money can't buy happiness. But I beg to differ. Because I believe that in this world, money, is one of the key to happiness.

Because of financial problems, marriage lives are broken.
Because of financial problems, people start robbing.
Because of financial problems, parents sell their kids to those industries.

All these outcomes were never meant to happen. None of these events were ever desirable in the eyes of man.

This is because we're living in this world where money defines our social status, our standard of living, etc.

But there is one thing we all need to have. We need the wisdom.

Which is, never to worship the riches.

The different facets of our life.

When you feel you're alone, cut off from this cruel world.
Your instincts tell you to run
Listen to your heart, those angel voices,
They'll sing to you, they'll be your guide back home

When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind
It keeps us kind.

Your agenda.

I open my lungs to breathe in forgiveness and love
Haunting me now reminders of how I used to be
And on down the road my troubles are sure to follow.
Looking out the window, the hell if I know where I will go
So I'll just keep on driving.

It really lies in your intentions.
Despite the outcome, regardless if its an optimistic or pessimistic nature, it all voice down to your perceived desire.

Will a rich man offer thousands of bills to charity be more valuable than a little school kid emptying his little money pouch to the tissue paper uncle?

At times we tried to do well in life, perhaps in studies in this case. But the tension within the social circle becomes stronger. We lose friends, or maybe, we don't even have the chance to nurture the relationship at all.

It whatever we do, there will always be an inverse force working through our way. But to succeed, we have to fight against that opposing current inevitably.

Childhood phases.

What should you do, think, react & plan when you're faced with tonnes of stress, expectations, family issues at this hour?

When you know you've still a long long way ahead before you hit on that final bed and tell yourself "all is well, I've lived life without any regrets".

I believe that your childhood days forms the core of your personality no matter what comes after that. It's because when we're young, we're innocent & therefore hold on to that promise dearly.

We're most gullible and innocent when we're young. But when forces of the opposing site comes into our lives, we've learned that fairy tales and all are full of bull.

A child with a disadvantage family background will always be on the extreme ends when he/she grows up.

Either a dog or a catalyst in the society.

Being a dog in the society means growing up to be a useless piece of shit because they reminisce on their bad experiences when they were young. They have no confidence in life, no goals, no nothing. They stray away, being part of the dump because of excessive self-pitying.

When one is done being fooled, pushed around, etc. They become the latter. All they wanna do is not living a life that allows bad history from repeating.

When shit just happens in your life, you'll just gotta pull yourself up and move forward. Just remember that there will always be mountain high experiences and valley low, something like a roller coaster ride.

Leading troops.

Till that day
I take you home
know that I’m waiting

Haunted by your grace
the beautiful of falling, falling
the echos through my days
I still hear your calling
you calling me.


Ever thought what's life gonna be like without making your own decisions?

Ever thought what would be the the overall dynamics be when you make decisions for a bunch of friends, group or team?

Each of us have different perspective in life, and I believe we can't please everyone through the decision we've made.

Even Jesus has his own set of haters because of mankind's jealousy, pride and hatred.

After much thoughts. Despite being adamant, the results have reflected that such approaches are necessary at times. & it has been proven that it's the most effective way to do it.

Regardless of how much effort we've came out with, at the end of the day, there are bound to have some unappreciative souls. No doubt that this phase of life signifies a child's play lifestyle, it is still essential for each and everyone to have the initiative to do things.

Kite's perspective.

Ask yourself this question without thinking twice:
Which is more affordable?
A Fossil's Watch or a Rolex's Watch?

Answer: - Rolex's Watch.
Though it is priced at a premium cost, it provides a life-time guarantee because of its quality. Unlike the former, we must always purchase a new one due to its limited life-span.

This statement can only be agreed if we look at a long term's perspective.

Through this experience, we can apply this context in many situations.

It is stereotypical for people to think that it's materialistic for someone to purchase such high ticket item. But the matter of fact is, through the process of pertaining to this goal, one needs to work hard for it.

& through the blood & sweat, we learn what real competition is, what is life and ultimately what are the "true colors" of the friends in our social circle.

Personally, it is never wrong to seek for a high expectation in life, especially in terms of salary, monetary aspects.

Whenever I walk pass down the street, I see elderly uncles hanging out there helplessly. Without goals, passion, and most importantly, without love. Wanna reach out to them but somehow, it seems too tough to stay connected to them. Regret lives in them, perhaps they didn't knew what they want when they were young.

Just some thoughts.

Came home from the awards ceremony for business students.

It's kinda prestigeous because your close ones are invited to the event. & they watch you walk up that stage, grabbing hold of that certificate.

It's not like those kind of student union ceremony where people welcome the new family, but it is a celebration that acknowledges your presence, contributions and your hardwork.

Somehow life's feeling a little empty even with these achievements.
What's achievement without having feelings attached to it? Nothing.

Things always have to be personal in order for that particular achievement to be meaningful.

Given the credibility of being one of the best, it's still pointless if the person you want to share with does not show any signs of reciprocation. Perhaps people who don't mind your life couldn't appreciate the achivements you've done.

Somehow opinions do really matter, but mostly those who don't matter in our lives don't affect our emotions.

This cycle of attitude goes on, until someone comes and break this system.

Let it go.

She's gonna fly a thousand miles away.
Thousands of farewell givings, standing before the entrance of glass walls.
Looking at her, from a faraway place.

Going closer, but still with a distance.
Saw her face, in a crowded place.

& I don't know what to do.
Cause i'll never get to you.

Strong Pillars

2 of my closest friends I've made in poly.
But what's up now?
Perhaps I don't know how to express my gratitude to them.

When strangers become strangers once more.

Adversely.

Here they come all the young,
all the old and everybody else who is told.
That I'm here now, yes I'm here now
And as everybody gathers around,
oh I swear we can still hear the sound of your guitar
Broken Down - Kevin Hammond

I managed to talk to one of the kids in church.
"Do you like coffee?". The reply was, "No".
Lol, so I asked why. "Cause it's bitter!"

Church will always be an eye-opener for me. From the youngest to the oldest, we'll learn about the various characteristics of people through church eventually.

Young children always have the liberty to enjoy what freedom really is don't they?
Taking things literally, just the way they are.
Enjoying a cup of milo to a cup of coffee because it tastes so much sweeter.

okay enuf nonsense. What im saying is, in different seasons in our life, we'll view things from a different angle.

Sometimes we've regretted not studying harder during secondary school.
Sometimes we were thankful that the playful nature in us served as a wake up call to reality.

Life is not a bitter sweet process.
But it's a sweet->bitter->sweet journey :)

Thin line.

I open my lungs to breathe in forgiveness and love.
Haunting me now, reminders of how I used to be.
And on down the road, my troubles are sure to follow
Looking out the window, the hell if I know, where I will go
So I'll just keep on driving.


I heard too much shit. Too much doubts about students produced by polytechnic.

So what if you're one of the top student in the institution? You're still fucking wasting 1 year as compared to students from College.

& when you've graduated from university, your employers will have the tendency to chuck aside the applicant that once came from poly.

Why? Cause they all fucking think that poly students can't adapt to the enviroment, can't analyze deeper, can't make decisions quicker and all.

Pure stereotyping.

(That's what I've heard so far. but i totally think that's bullshit because.............. it's not about how well you start, but how well you end :p
No but seriously, ultimately it's about the street smartness in you that pulls you through.)

Right now i think life sucks because im kinda wasting my days. Stucked with holidays, doing nothing productive. 10days++ more before starting on my final year in this school.

Haven't secure my attachment yet. How the hell am I gonna be calm and all.
& I'll keep my fingers cross.

Hi guys.

Kinda bored since the start of the holidays. Wishing that things could start kicking off again. It's been 5 weeks already. 2 or more weeks to go.

The songs at the bottom are pretty depressing. Might wanna click the "x" button at the top right corner.

But such songs chill your mind away from the stressors of life.
Try listening to the songs, lie on the bed and enjoy the momento of it.

It doesn't really hurt to try, so yeah :)

In circles.

Had the opportunity to interact with a couple of millionaires during dinner.
It was dad's bday. (Unfortunately he wasn't one of them HAHAHA)
Those were some of his clients attending the occasion.

Remember the days when we watched drama programmes on TV, where the poor were always crying over financial problems?

Well, the conversations carried out by them were completely the other way round.

They're considered as one of the successful businessmen in Singapore (I supposed so).

We're always in this circle, where money never fail to play a major role in our lives. But it really depends on how we take a stand in perspective on "success" itself.

It's because of money, there's such a thing called gambling.
Like they all say, gambling is always a zero-sum activity.

To gain something from it, we have to bring the other party down in expense of their $$$. & as often we don't cherish our winnings as much as our hard-earned cash from those kinda typical part time jobs.

We'll just spend it all unknowingly that it was the losers' hard earned money.

The earth can meet man's need, but never greed.

Shaking cold, these hands were meant to hold.

Most of the time people pray to God for stuffs to be in their will.
But the situation made it seem that the only solution, is to be in yours instead of mine.

How could things be so perfect, well, in my eyes that is.
Perhaps the flaws could only be seen after a period of time, or perhaps looking from a fix point of view prevents a broader perspective.

Don't wanna fall to pieces, just wanna sit there astray.
Don't wanna know the truth, just wanna keep it this way.

Really wanna know how stuffs have been so far.
But if there's no reciprocation, it's really pointless.

Envisaging on how life would be less stressed up, more meaningful, livelier.

Initially, it was just pure admiration.
Yes it was.

Burgerrrrs.

Went down to Macdonalds about an hour ago.
Well, who could resist not taking a chillpill at such a place when it's right below your house? hahaha.

Saw an auntie sitting alone at a corner with her fillet-o-fish. Just watching the way she held the burger. It was 2am++ in the morn and yeah, I thought to myself, how nice would it be if there was another person to have a meal with that elderly lady.

Not to mention, I was there alone too HAHAHA. Felt like having a munch because I couldn't sleep and all.

I personally believe that having a great conversation with someone that is stress-free and genuine really beat any sort of entertainment in life. Exchanging personal beliefs and opinions provides opportunity to know one and other better.

Several reasons why people seek for companionship. Some like hugs that brings out the warmth, some needs motivation in studies, some just falls in love because of "love at first sight"(this category falls into the fairy tale shit HAHAHA).

But there are some that needs a special soul to appreciate their worldviews, thoughts and action. Wouldn't it be sweet if there's someone that will never ever disagree with your future plans, future goals and future steps? I mean, everyone needs some sort of encouragement and support don't they?

Being alone doesn't necessarily mean being lonely. It might just mean that their special stuffs ain't worth sharing with anyone yet.

Compromises.

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

Chris Medina - What are Words

Walking out.

There're 2 things in life that never fails to brighten up my day. First is a cup of coffee (sugarless). And next, a can of heineken beeeeer.

Don't really agree much with people who hate these 2 beverages. Though it might taste bitter and all, but somehow appreciating stuffs like this really enables me to associate things in different perspective.

After church service, Marc and I went for a lunch date with Auntie Kim. It was really an eye opener for me.

Well, most of the time, the both of us were just aunt kim’s listening ear.
She's at least 60 years of age, had little confidence in speaking, fluency problems etcetc. Despite all these drawbacks, she speaks with sincerity and command. & emotions were flowing out of the conversations as well.

Bottom of my heart, I really do believe that such moments are priceless. You can't really engage a long-conversation easily with an elderly person anywhere, anytime when you're outside.

But in church, we have the privilege to do so. Bringing a smile out of the cracks in their lives, generally gives anyone a sense of joy and satisfaction. & it was really an honour for an elderly to invite us along to a small gathering/lunch appointment.

Teenagers, youths. We all aim for the tangible stuffs, the conscious, the obvious. But often leave out the wiser words, the bigger picture of life.

Inspire not with your intentions, but with the understanding.

Perhaps there's no reciprocation.
Perhaps its anachronism.

Somewhere only we know.

Just got back from MBS.
Got a little sick of mugging at home. So i've decided to take a tour with the rest of my notes at MBS.

Otw there was retarded because I've seen so many elderly people heading their way down to the casino. Somehow it's the addictions that tears a family apart..

Okay nevertheless, I really enjoyed the atmosphere there.
The lightings @ night in the mall actually plays a huge psychological impact in customers. With the various accent lightings and all, they've managed to create a contrast of shadows and dim lights along the various aisles. Hence this generate some sort of interest and anticipation while walking ard the mall with a posh and exclusive impression.

Lol, I personally feel that learning stuffs in retail is more like a leisure, wider exposure of life to me. Concepts we've learned could only bring the subconscious factors that attracts people into the stores, to our conscious. Making it obvious to prevent impulse purchases, etcetc. (save money lolllllll)

& nothing more hahaha.

The highlight of my midnight tour..

This was taken right outside Bay Sand's shopping mall.
You know where there are wooden platforms, where water fountains (whatever you call that) is on the move, along with the projection to create a "slide show".

It was 1.30am & there were no souls around there. The atmosphere was deserted, yet beautiful. Really took off some pressures in life, all the ambitions, all the desires, all the shits. (For the moment only i suppose hahaha)
It's like thinking of nothing, and just solely appreciating what the visual effects had brandished.

Life can offer a whole lot of positive affections as compared to the negative. But often we choose to focus on the rational.. Making life miserable and all.

Cabbed home at about 2.10am.

Lies.

I know that theres no turning back
if we put too much light on this we'll see through all the cracks
let's stay in the dark one more night
don't want to know
I'm okay with this silence
it's truth that I dont want hear

Sometimes the truth hurts, but at least, the intentions are known.

Mindset.

The sunlight, warm me and penetrate these broken bones.
Windows are frozen, they lock me out of a life I know.
And my eyes are bleeding, cause I learn to see in the blackest night

The 3 of us, had a little food festival over dinner, known as "the reunion dinner".
Hmmm, though there was a wide spread of sumptious food on the table, somehow along the line i realized that there's something missing.

I was just browsing through facebook earlier and I came across this picture:

Out of the blue, couldn't help but a drop of tear just rolled down my cheek. Only such beautiful context melts my heart, lollllll.

It's because we all seek for affiliation in many different ways.

Many of times we're conditioned to such stimulus that yearns for warmth. So much that makes our hearts become hardened when we have the insufficient. Put it in a simpler term, hearts that became numb.

We don't feel the pain no more because we've decided to keep those memories back into our unconscious.

& the only way to conquer this little self-pity mindset is to challenge against these painful memories.

Psalm 27:10 "Even if my father and mother abandon me, the Lord will hold me close."

I believe that there is no need to indulge in disparity because such situation brings life to the other side of the coin.

We become stronger & tougher, just like a brand new skin known as, scars.

complementary traits.

Had sort of a reunion dinner with bros last nighttt. Unfortunately half of them weren't there. Lol, what a waste.

Nevertheless, the moments we had were priceless. Had loads of valuable conversations and all.
I didn't knew that sky garden @ esplanade was that romanticccc. Hahaha gay night.

Ever heard before the word "bromance"? I love the word. But yet again, b-romance means BEFORE-ROMANCE as well.

So yeah, when we're all grown up, we'll distance with one another sooner or later. Life moves on just like this hehe.

Memories are permanent snapshots stucked in our head. We'll only forget when we don't reflect over them constantly.

Reminisce on those that are worth it, leave the rest all in the unconscious :)

Go all out.

Now that we're here, so far away.
All the struggles that we thought was in vain.
All the mistakes, one life contained.
They all finally start to fade away.

What I've learned for the past few phases in school was all meaningful.
Too many interesting shits happen every now and then.

& I realized that, the greatest failure ain't failing at things you aren't good at. But achieving in things that don't matter at the end of the day.

Why? Doing the things that doesn't satisfy us is plain stupid. Conforming to the standards of the world just because of peer acceptance, is a total bull.

Because of affiliation, we compromise. Because of the veneer recognition that we wanna attain in the eyes of man, we inflate our accomplishments. Because of the pressures of the world, we hold back to prevent being judged.

We forsake our motto in life, too much.

Bottom line is, fight for the things that you want, not the things that you should.

Worldviews.

You whispered that you were getting tired.
Got a look in your eye,
tells me like its goodbye.
So hold on to your secrets tonight.
Lie to me and tell me that we're gonna be alright,
and lie to me and tell me that we'll pull through the night.


A little reflection over the jap's trip.
The best moments weren't Disney, weren't the group gatherings, weren't the snow.

But it's at..
Starbucks. Alone. While the rest went shopping LOL.
Weird isn't it? hahahaha.
It was around 11 degree celcius at that moment. Decided to take a chill pill outside the store instead of enjoying the warmth inside.

Looked up and saw this beautiful view across the avenue:

Atmosphere was calm yet certain.
Everything felt so right and peaceful. The only sounds made were the railway tracks, foot steps of the crowd walking pass the store and the strong winds brushing the leaves of the trees.

This was taken at Shinkuju, one of the busiest district in Tokyo. Countless of shops and offices. Times Square, Takashimaya is the huge building on the left, and the one of the right.. Ain't really sure whats the name of that clock tower hahaha.

I realised that. There's a vast difference between our naked eye and cameras can capture. Sometimes being present in that particular scenery brings individuals to another realm. But when snapshots of pictures are taken by tools like the camera, it no longer feels the same.

Yet again.. with the aid of equipments, we could see micro-bacterias that our naked eyes can't.

Humans in general, expect a lot in life. So much so that one takes things for granted as always. Events and all becomes boring, in search of exclusive materialistic desires that will satisfy them temporarily.

Lol, Christmas season for example? So many people ranting off their fbs statuses on how lonely and pathetic their lives are without a special somebody(steadies maybe) to celebrate with.

Gotta look into the 'micro' of life instead of the 'macro' at times.