Regardless how knowledgeable we are, there are many things in life that we gotta learn. In this society, we based our judgement mainly on the surface. Unless explained, we'll never know why and how certain things happen for a reason.
Our interpersonal skills, the way we express ourselves, can be considered as one of the main qualities in which people gauge how successful and respectable one is. I was just reminded that not everyone have this quality in them.
I guess there're certain stuffs that can't be force, and there's certain stuffs that takes time to be adapted. No doubt that human are wired in ways that may be weak in certain qualities, but I believe we can always work towards it.
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Friday, December 21, 2012
When still waters run deep.
I haven't been penning my thoughts down for the past few months. But since I guess today's the "last day" to live on earth, it's time to crack some cells and put my brains to work.
I've just been thinking about the word, "strive". This word, could mean 2 things. Either you're working hard to excel, or trying to make ends meet just to survive.
You see, we often strive for the things we desire and not so much for the things we really need. The society has taught us about the importance of reputation as an idol in our lives. Our lives are based upon pride issues, expectations from the society and other materialistic stuffs.
Such performance traps makes us overlook certain stuffs, and eventually living life aimlessly. It's really true that it's always the simple things we do in life that we treasure the most. That's because there's no materialistic elements in it.
What matters most in our lives are the stuffs that runs deep in us. Thoughts that we don't really show to the society. Something that we always yearned for since our childhood days. Those are the hopes that were dashed as we mature in this society.
Some scars are present in our lives to make us fall. But whereas there's some to make us stronger.
I've just been thinking about the word, "strive". This word, could mean 2 things. Either you're working hard to excel, or trying to make ends meet just to survive.
You see, we often strive for the things we desire and not so much for the things we really need. The society has taught us about the importance of reputation as an idol in our lives. Our lives are based upon pride issues, expectations from the society and other materialistic stuffs.
Such performance traps makes us overlook certain stuffs, and eventually living life aimlessly. It's really true that it's always the simple things we do in life that we treasure the most. That's because there's no materialistic elements in it.
What matters most in our lives are the stuffs that runs deep in us. Thoughts that we don't really show to the society. Something that we always yearned for since our childhood days. Those are the hopes that were dashed as we mature in this society.
Some scars are present in our lives to make us fall. But whereas there's some to make us stronger.
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Thin line.
There's a fine line of difference between ignorance and stupidity. These 2 terms, in my opinion, are classified based on the action's intention.
Stupidity are actions you do while knowing the consequences behind it. Like for example, self-suicidal. Whereas ignorance could cause an uneventful scenario to happen without anyone wanting it to happen. Sometimes shit just happens in a spur .
I really despise comments made by people when they themselves do not understand the full picture. "oh well he only got himself to blame for being too reckless." "oh gosh never let stupidity get the better of you".
To my understanding, an accident happens because of an action with hidden blind spots. If one should really judge a person for his/her action, they should really assess the agenda of it before making any sort of comment. It just shows how shallow minded a person could be. Without actually empathizing, non-constructive comments such as this actually turns people off.
Monday, August 20, 2012
Your turning point.
Just a little question, perhaps a rhetorical one: Is there a point of time in your life when you felt it's time to have a change of lifestyle?
I was by the park again in the early afternoon, just chilling with a cup of sugarcane and some music from my phone. Saw this little asian caucasian baby with his grandpa taking him out on a stroll. He looked at me with his little blue eyes, and yeah. Truth, happiness and authenticity was what I saw in his soul.
Ever remembered the beliefs that you held on so dearly when you were a toddler before? And only to realize that your dreams were crushed as you grow older in the system of this world.
There are many retrieval cues that changes our lives drastically. But it really depends on how our worldviews rest upon the current situation. It could either make or break you adversely.
No doubt we all have our defining moments in all walks of life. But ultimately it's really up to us whether we wanna be a catalyst in this world, that is, make a difference in the society.
I was by the park again in the early afternoon, just chilling with a cup of sugarcane and some music from my phone. Saw this little asian caucasian baby with his grandpa taking him out on a stroll. He looked at me with his little blue eyes, and yeah. Truth, happiness and authenticity was what I saw in his soul.
Ever remembered the beliefs that you held on so dearly when you were a toddler before? And only to realize that your dreams were crushed as you grow older in the system of this world.
There are many retrieval cues that changes our lives drastically. But it really depends on how our worldviews rest upon the current situation. It could either make or break you adversely.
No doubt we all have our defining moments in all walks of life. But ultimately it's really up to us whether we wanna be a catalyst in this world, that is, make a difference in the society.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Walking the talk.
Did a 2 hours reflection by the park just now. Realized that there are still many more things that I needa learn. No doubt I've been confine in an enclosed area for 17 days, but I guess I appreciated the time I had during that period.
The highlight during this period, were the values that I've learned. Which is, to cherish the things that I have that's around me. And since I'm gonna spend the 2 years over here, I guess making the best out of it would be the best & only option that I'm gonna take.
In the civilian world, it's kinda typical of someone to think that being in the army would be equating to, defending our country. To be honest, there's more to it. It's more about defending in something you believe in dearly. & that's my family, my love ones. No doubt in the army we'll lose a little bit of touch from the life we used to have that's comfortable, but ultimately it teaches us to be strong.
With regards to defending something, it might not be literally holding weapons as safety mechanisms. But it may also refer to something like standing firm in what you believe adamantly all along. Respect does not comes as and when you like. Nonetheless, it comes from what you've achieved.
The highlight during this period, were the values that I've learned. Which is, to cherish the things that I have that's around me. And since I'm gonna spend the 2 years over here, I guess making the best out of it would be the best & only option that I'm gonna take.
In the civilian world, it's kinda typical of someone to think that being in the army would be equating to, defending our country. To be honest, there's more to it. It's more about defending in something you believe in dearly. & that's my family, my love ones. No doubt in the army we'll lose a little bit of touch from the life we used to have that's comfortable, but ultimately it teaches us to be strong.
With regards to defending something, it might not be literally holding weapons as safety mechanisms. But it may also refer to something like standing firm in what you believe adamantly all along. Respect does not comes as and when you like. Nonetheless, it comes from what you've achieved.
Monday, July 23, 2012
The difference.
Well there's one thing that I was reminded of recently. "You can't love a stranger one bit." & if you've ever came across with a thought of wanting to know someone, that's called infatuation.
Many of us are actually blinded by the system of the world. God gave us eyes. & yet its quite hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind.
Many of us are actually blinded by the system of the world. God gave us eyes. & yet its quite hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind.
2 Corinthians 4:18 : 'So we fixed on eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but that is unseen is eternal.'
In this case, patience is key in a relationship. Understanding one another's likings & dislikes. Understanding one another's strength and weaknesses. And most importantly, understanding one another's heart.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Colors.
Just felt the need to blog after being inspired by some bloggers talking about their perception of lives. Hmmm well, people that I respect the most are those who have a mindset of their own, decisions and convictions that stands firmly.
Count myself a fortunate kid. Been to 3 countries within 2 months. Turkey, Thailand and the most recent trip, Perth in Australia. All the trips taught me different kind of life values. Nonetheless, the trips showed me a similar thought. That is our parents were the one that provided it all for us. And the only reason why they could provide us with such luxurious privilege, it's because they have the financial capabilities to support us.
Anyhow I'm kinda ready for the next phase of life, which is NS. After loitering around for like 4 months, not doing any activities that is actually really productive, I guess I'm all set for it :)
17 more days.
Count myself a fortunate kid. Been to 3 countries within 2 months. Turkey, Thailand and the most recent trip, Perth in Australia. All the trips taught me different kind of life values. Nonetheless, the trips showed me a similar thought. That is our parents were the one that provided it all for us. And the only reason why they could provide us with such luxurious privilege, it's because they have the financial capabilities to support us.
Anyhow I'm kinda ready for the next phase of life, which is NS. After loitering around for like 4 months, not doing any activities that is actually really productive, I guess I'm all set for it :)
17 more days.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
A parachute mindset.
I've been reflecting a little bit recently. On about how a person's personality could make an adverse impact in the society. In most cases, a person who leads an easy-going, flexible and un-conscientious lifestyle finds himself having a wider social circle of friends.
Touching down at a random place.
Sometimes we just need to let nature takes its course? Man alone can't change the world. The harder we try, we'd only find more disappointment along the way. This is because greater expectations comes with greater sense of self-actualization.
& the less rigid we are, we'd actually find ourselves being more adaptable to different clauses of environment. A happier human being.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
When you've nowhere to go.
We'll build a fortress
To Keep them out
And in a world gone silent
I'll be your sound
And if they try to hurt you
I'll tear them down
I'm always with you now
Sometimes listening to trance just takes you to another realm.
It just gives you some glimpse of hope in the hopelessness.
It teaches you how to embrace the serenity and the artwork of life.
Despite the pressures we've been facing in this current society, there are bound to have an outlet of support we can always turn to.
& I believe trance, can always be one of them.
Friday, May 11, 2012
Rhetorical.
Just a little question:
Are you a happy or sad drunk?
When the alcohol kicks in, my mind starts thinking even more. These expectations, goals, pressures, desires, triggering cues of such images keep residing.
What if you fail big time?
What if you don't have the money to spend what you want?
What if you don't make your family proud?
What if you stop what you're doing halfway and ended up being a douche?
What ifs.. All the what ifs.
You may termed this as 'insecurity'. But I guess it's a form of positive motivation to move on with life.
Recently, I just got this revelation. That life is like an highway.
This world is bleak, dark and ruthless. Nobody in this secular world gives us respect unless we first respect ourselves. None would bother to support us unless we prove our worth.
Nonetheless, we gotta stay strong, keep our fingers crossed, clench our teeth hard. It's because in this highway, there's no such thing as a red traffic light there for us. There's no room for complacency, but only space for progressing forward.
When the alcohol kicks in, my mind starts thinking even more. These expectations, goals, pressures, desires, triggering cues of such images keep residing.
What if you fail big time?
What if you don't have the money to spend what you want?
What if you don't make your family proud?
What if you stop what you're doing halfway and ended up being a douche?
What ifs.. All the what ifs.
You may termed this as 'insecurity'. But I guess it's a form of positive motivation to move on with life.
Recently, I just got this revelation. That life is like an highway.
This world is bleak, dark and ruthless. Nobody in this secular world gives us respect unless we first respect ourselves. None would bother to support us unless we prove our worth.
Nonetheless, we gotta stay strong, keep our fingers crossed, clench our teeth hard. It's because in this highway, there's no such thing as a red traffic light there for us. There's no room for complacency, but only space for progressing forward.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
You left me there hanging.
It's no one's fault.
There's none to blame.
I was really glad there were some meaningful moments that we managed to have.
Cherished it a lot.
But there's one thing for sure.
Only the gullible's never move on with life :)
There's none to blame.
I was really glad there were some meaningful moments that we managed to have.
Cherished it a lot.
But there's one thing for sure.
Only the gullible's never move on with life :)
Monday, April 16, 2012
Swaying images
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind,images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick.
Well I'd never want to see you unhappy,
I'd thought you'd want the same for me.
Goodbye, my almost lover.
Goodbye, my hopeless dream.
I'm tryin not to think about you,
Can't you just let me be
A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover
Just got back from Genting.. Well, this song was on replay for like countless of times on the coach, back & forth.
Got me to reflect some of the stuffs for the past 3-4 years. How life passed so quickly. How I once was a freshie in poly. & now, finally, graduated..
I really do feel that God has blessed me with so many things in life. Studies, BFL, Financials.. However, somehow I feel there's something lacking. Perhaps it's the way I view the day-to-day, common & typical issues of life.
*It's always the i-don't-give-a-shit kind of attitude that turns people off i guess.
Sometimes a love relationship is like a burning cigarette. We inhale the tobacco into our lungs, & we'll feel the kick. Once it's burned to the brim of the filter, we've lost the chemistry.
& you'd wonder why the supposed special one is treating you differently all together.
It thus made me believed why making decision based on logic & rationality would be a better choice instead on human emotions.
AND BECAUSE OF THIS, people in school think I'm some cold blooded, competitive & hypocrite kinda person. Well, I don't blame them because I know this problem lies within myself.
& Maybe this is why, A, you're feeling that way, uncomfortable.
Sometimes solutions ain't so simple, sometimes goodbye's the only way..
The palm trees swaying in the wind,images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick.
Well I'd never want to see you unhappy,
I'd thought you'd want the same for me.
Goodbye, my almost lover.
Goodbye, my hopeless dream.
I'm tryin not to think about you,
Can't you just let me be
A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover
Just got back from Genting.. Well, this song was on replay for like countless of times on the coach, back & forth.
Got me to reflect some of the stuffs for the past 3-4 years. How life passed so quickly. How I once was a freshie in poly. & now, finally, graduated..
I really do feel that God has blessed me with so many things in life. Studies, BFL, Financials.. However, somehow I feel there's something lacking. Perhaps it's the way I view the day-to-day, common & typical issues of life.
*It's always the i-don't-give-a-shit kind of attitude that turns people off i guess.
Sometimes a love relationship is like a burning cigarette. We inhale the tobacco into our lungs, & we'll feel the kick. Once it's burned to the brim of the filter, we've lost the chemistry.
& you'd wonder why the supposed special one is treating you differently all together.
It thus made me believed why making decision based on logic & rationality would be a better choice instead on human emotions.
AND BECAUSE OF THIS, people in school think I'm some cold blooded, competitive & hypocrite kinda person. Well, I don't blame them because I know this problem lies within myself.
& Maybe this is why, A, you're feeling that way, uncomfortable.
Sometimes solutions ain't so simple, sometimes goodbye's the only way..
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Callings.
Being an innocent party.
Why do financial difficulties have to be the barrier in most families?
Being pressurized, going through such motions takes life deeper than what it should be. Lives of the child gets too distressed.
Goals are developed, pride within them hardened. Emotionally, they all react differently to various stimulator..
Sometimes perhaps this is why it motivates you to move on to the next phase of life, adulthood, because only then you can take control of your own decision wholly.
Why do financial difficulties have to be the barrier in most families?
Being pressurized, going through such motions takes life deeper than what it should be. Lives of the child gets too distressed.
Goals are developed, pride within them hardened. Emotionally, they all react differently to various stimulator..
Sometimes perhaps this is why it motivates you to move on to the next phase of life, adulthood, because only then you can take control of your own decision wholly.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Confessions.
Lyin here with you so close to me,
Its hard to fight these feelings when if feels so hard to breathe.
I'm caught up in this moment,
I'm caught up with your smile.
Dearest,
I really hope that we could pull this through together somehow.
So many factors that sets us apart. & I feel that it's a barrier between us.
I value long-term memories over than just "living for the moment" periods. I believe you do cherish such worldview too, don't you?
You mentioned before that you're sure that you'll wanna try to take things to the next level, but you aren't sure that would this be the route for you. Perhaps that you too, believed that chemistry that was found shouldn't be gone to waste just like that hmmm. This is why I think I really tried with the best of efforts that I could give into this. I know you're trying too, but I guess sometimes it's tough for a shy kid like you to express it thoroughly huhhhhhhhhh.
This is just some thoughts that came through my mind randomly, something that I just wanna typed out and not just bottle up. Ultimately, it's just something that I wanna share with you.
It may seem like I'm getting a little paranoid over this matter, even with the smallest issue. I know I'm just overlooking matters.
But this is because,
I don't wanna lose us without a putting on a fight.
Its hard to fight these feelings when if feels so hard to breathe.
I'm caught up in this moment,
I'm caught up with your smile.
Dearest,
I really hope that we could pull this through together somehow.
So many factors that sets us apart. & I feel that it's a barrier between us.
I value long-term memories over than just "living for the moment" periods. I believe you do cherish such worldview too, don't you?
You mentioned before that you're sure that you'll wanna try to take things to the next level, but you aren't sure that would this be the route for you. Perhaps that you too, believed that chemistry that was found shouldn't be gone to waste just like that hmmm. This is why I think I really tried with the best of efforts that I could give into this. I know you're trying too, but I guess sometimes it's tough for a shy kid like you to express it thoroughly huhhhhhhhhh.
This is just some thoughts that came through my mind randomly, something that I just wanna typed out and not just bottle up. Ultimately, it's just something that I wanna share with you.
It may seem like I'm getting a little paranoid over this matter, even with the smallest issue. I know I'm just overlooking matters.
But this is because,
I don't wanna lose us without a putting on a fight.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Regardless.
Hope decays,
Generation disappears
Washed away
As a nation simply stares
Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away
And now there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking
All you ever wanted,
Was someone to truly look up to you.
& six feet underwater, I do.
Have you seen the flaws already?
Would you still accept the imperfection state of a human despite seeing through it?
Actually, it's all on purpose.
Why? It's because we all need to know the truth. This sets apart a novelty feeling and true emotions are.
With things going on like this, somehow it feels like the road is heading towards a jagged surface.
Generation disappears
Washed away
As a nation simply stares
Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away
And now there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking
All you ever wanted,
Was someone to truly look up to you.
& six feet underwater, I do.
Have you seen the flaws already?
Would you still accept the imperfection state of a human despite seeing through it?
Actually, it's all on purpose.
Why? It's because we all need to know the truth. This sets apart a novelty feeling and true emotions are.
With things going on like this, somehow it feels like the road is heading towards a jagged surface.
Thursday, February 9, 2012
It's just hearts.
When all I want is for you to see
The side that I don’t show to anyone
In fear that they may turn and run
Alone and incomplete
No more tears to cry
No more blood to bleed.
Today was the end of presentation. Sigh of relief.. But yet, still countless of things running through my mind.
I swear I'm gonna miss the computer lab in school.. Throughout this 3 years in poly, at least 50% of the time spent in the computer labs.
We're gonna graduate within a week already.. So many things left unsaid, so many things left undone.
Maybe somehow if things aren't meant to be yours, it will never be.
Face it.
The side that I don’t show to anyone
In fear that they may turn and run
Alone and incomplete
No more tears to cry
No more blood to bleed.
Today was the end of presentation. Sigh of relief.. But yet, still countless of things running through my mind.
I swear I'm gonna miss the computer lab in school.. Throughout this 3 years in poly, at least 50% of the time spent in the computer labs.
We're gonna graduate within a week already.. So many things left unsaid, so many things left undone.
Maybe somehow if things aren't meant to be yours, it will never be.
Face it.
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