City on a hill.

Was at Jams on Sunday practically the whole late afternoon to evening. Located at 4th level of Ion Orchard, prologue. One of the best cafe I've ever been, to mug etcetc. Atmosphere was excellent, the songs were more or less in tune with the christmas festive and all.

When you're trying so hard to find meaning in life, this is what you might try doing hohoho.
Sounds weird but, I really do enjoy being alone. Basically, just reflecting on life.(Indulging in some self-effacement exercise :x)

I was reminded about something. It's about a revelation, thesis or whatever you call that is generalized by scientists.
Goes like, "Our emotions are more or less controlled by neurons in our lives."
Refers that humans do not have a spirit living in them, but basically just cells passing down messages. External factors triggers these cells to transmit information through electrical waves or smth. (not really sure of the defination)

But yet again, don't you agree that it's the soul in us that is in control? Rather than just cells moving around, cells that encourages backstab or whatever.

Or maybe here's another thought, who created/formed/developed all these cells if the thesis made by scientist is true?
Maybe yet again, just who heck is the creator of all these living things? Lol.

To me, the truth is based on the generalization of things, experiencing something that relates to me uniquely.

A truth may not be another person's truth. But if we live the truth through us, the very least we could achieve is by inspiring them, that there's something different in the truth that we believe.


You are the light of the world. A city on a hill that cannot be hidden.

Relentless grace.

We were called to be victiorious over it.
Not defeated, not a survival.
But like a warrior that triumphs over it.
When we're always falling back by the forces,
When we feel a force that is acting against us,
It just means that we're moving forward towards a new future.

Weak in the flesh, strong in the mind.
When rational thoughts outweighs the emotional,
We'll do things that is deemed weird in the view of the world.

Guilt arises, but strength filters it.

The only time when we're being multiplied,
its during the time of brokeness.
Broken pieces that enables our naked eyes to see the things of the world.
It breaks pride, it breaks barriers, it breaks ambiguity.
It breaks aloofness, coolness, hypocrisy.

Lol, i don't really know what im typing.
Typing nonsense maybe.
Maybe that decision, is gonna be lifetime regret.
On the other hand, viewing things from another dimension,
it's as if there is light coming from the end of the tunnel.


Need your grace, to find joy in life.
Need your forgiveness, your undying passion.
To fan the flame for you.

Stepping out.

Hmmm, lets go the daily affairs style.

Had a long trip down to NTU earlier in the afternoon. Took almost 2hours from Tampines down all the way to Boon Lay. Its ridiculously far because im practically travelling from one side of the country to the other.

Seriously, its no surprise that there's so many hostel being stationed in the school compound itself.

Went for a christian fellowship organized by one of the campus's movement, Melissa was the guess speaker. She never fails to keep the audiences in captive. Hahaha.
Talked about stepping out, being genuine and a witness for christ to the people around us.

She mentioned this phrase which goes smth like, "christianity isn't for people who aren't hypocrites, but for those who realizes they are."

Somehow it strucked me real hard. Yes, people do label some christians, followers of christ, as one of the best stage actors. Why?

Lol, and I know im dead guilty about it. (With the perception of school and such.)

The society has conditioned their mindset that followers of christ have to live a life of perfectionist. But really, no man is perfect. & when christians don't live up to the ideal lifestyle that people expect, they are being labeled as hypocrites.

Life recently has been madly interesting. (not the political affairs in school of course.)

Some police case between a newspaper uncle and a lady who tried to steal some money.
Realization in certain views and perceptions.
Town for various soulsearching inspiration.
Entreprenuer game simulation competition, made it to finals but ended up 4th.
Approaching weird people in the streeets, with efforts to strike up conversations.

Somehow, somewhere. I need to find the courage to have a conversation with those "homeless" old folks loitering around the void decks.

To those elderly people who prefers sleeping outside to their own homes.

&yes, I agree that there's a fine line between a house and a home.

Transitions.

Really, this world is unfair.

This damn equation, kept appearing on my mind.
(10000000000 x a positive number, z) = 100000000000z.
&
(10000000000 x a negative number, y) = -10000000000y.

Despite the numbers of good deeds you've done, the faults will always outweigh them.
And therefore, always being remembered as the culprit of that particular thing.

This is the power of sin. The ability to crush a person's recognition of whatever he/she has achieved in life.

Tiger Woods for example? Lollllll.

"So maybe in a coporate industry context, induce that person you hate to fall in sin? Next step is to further expose that person of what he has done. + Add some fuel to fire."
To me, this is considered as one of the most unscrupulous action lol.

Ecclesiastes 7:1-2 , "A good name is beter than fine perfume, and the day of death better than the day of birth. It is better to go to a house of mourning than to go to a house of feasting, for death is the destiny of every man;
the living should take this to heart"

the living should take this to heart,
really the living should take this to heart.

Self-Effacement.

After all the tears(maybe?), inks, papers, torments, expectations and liberations. It will all pay off at the end of the day, I'm sure of it.
Given your calibre, eventually the fruits being reaped will be in abundance.

Don't fret,
You'll do well for the papers :)