Situations can be viewed in different perceptions.

Hmm. Many things have been happening recently.
Friends having their relationship breaking up, friends feeling insecure.
Family problems raking up again, current projects aint hitting As.

Like what i told Steph, situations can be viewed and different angle.
Lets say a cup is half filled with water. We can all view it at 2 points.
1) The cup is half filled with water.
2) The cup is still half empty.

We can either look at the positive side of the situation, or we can be pessimistic about it. Thoughts and view simply affects the way we live our lives.
Do we wanna be a champion that picks oneself up when one fall, learn from mistake and carry on.
Or do we wanna be a loser procrastinating about how badly we've done, self-pity and all?

Cheer up Steph,time heals and yeah, soon it will be all over and wounds would be healed :)
But as a friend, I suggest try going to church and look for love. I believe God's house is a loving house. For He provides exceedingly, abundantly, above all. So yups, everyone have different ways of encounter with God. I'll be there as a friend for you. :) No boy's love wont die one. Seriously hahaha. Now still young, the guys cant provide for you a steady bowl of rice. Jiayou jiayou, wipe all ur tears and fears. :D

Let your praise become my embrace.

Everything is meaningless.
Wisdom and folly are meaningless.
Pleasures are meaningless.
Anything without of God is meaningless.
(A summary of the bible in the books of Ecclesiastes in the first few chapter.)

So, a blog post without God is meaningless too. My friends once told me blogging is like a diary. After reflecting deeply on the issue, whats the use of blogging when God isn't part of it? To grow in deeper of God, we need to
relate issues with God, doing regular queit time. The spiritual man needs food, just like the physical man.
And the food of a spiritual man is to feed on the word of God. Thats how you grow deeper in Him.

Another issue that has been going through my mind recently, is with the appearance of a Christian.
The leaders of a church encourages us to portray a good image of ourselves to everyone. (Looking neat and nerdy)
For me, I feel what matters is the inner self of us. Because that is what God would look in us.
God made us the way we feel, the way we express ourselves. But God gives us a choice to make decisions in life as well.

So no matter how ugly, gangsterish, punk, nerdy, innocent, handsome, retarded we may look; As long as we abide in the word, being doers of the word. We are followers of Him. But doing with moderation is necesarry at times in life.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

There is a time for everything, and a reason for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to rejoice,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Its that cross that changes our life.

Hmms. Right now, im in school's library.
Kaye went down to print some stuffs. So Im waiting for her return WITH MY TUNA SANDWICH. YEAH, IM SUPER HUNGRY.

Just finished part of POM's project. Its been really busy for me these few days.
Met up with Kirin and Sharifah ytd for pom, today was with Kaye.
Lets just hope everything would be fine after the storm.

Woke up at about 9.30am today, tried to get into the TP's website for CDS selection. Website was like super busy, cant GET IN.
Prolly everyone was trying to choose as well. Oh well, its first-come-first-serve basis.. So yeah.
Decided to wash up and get changed for school. I'm a lil bit kia su as well, rushed down to school because the comp wouldn't get hang while serving the TP's website.

*Cross fingers* Hope the first 3 choices of CDS would be avaiable for me.
Lets have faith in the Lord and trust in him, for he will provide.

This morn while rushing for sch, I was at the bus stop. Was waving frantically for a cab. The cab was either hired, or the bus was blocking the view of MY HAND WHILE WAVING.
In the end bus 22 came, decided to hop onto the bus. Just then, while reflecting on the bus, God spoke to me. Told me to have faith in him, just relax and everything would be fine. Was kind of convicted because I was like cursing due to the frustration i was facing while getting a cab. The only way to be like Him, is to be doers of His word.

Matthew 5:3-10
Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of their righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom to heaven.

What a beautiful disaster.

Oh, and I don't know. I dont know what she's after.
But She's so beautiful, such a beautiful disaster.
And if i could hold on, through the tears and the laughter.
Oh Lord wouldn't it be beautiful, or just a beautiful disaster?

Im longing for love and the logical,
but she's only happy hysterical.
Im waiting for some kind of miracle,
Waited so long.




LOLS. I GUESSED IM BEING LAME.

A NOVICE POEM.

They say she is hot, I say she's beautiful.
They think she is lame, I think she's wonderful.
They feel that she is a demand, I feel that she is a need.

She isn't just some pretty face,
Because she never fail to leave me amaze.

Although she is a little cute and innocent,
Her laughter was always filled with passion and excitement.

She cares for me and yes i know,
But the gratitude for her, i'll never show.

She needs someone to care and love her,
And I'd pray that she'll be the one I'm after.

Its that agape.

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are the voice that calls the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

Till I see you - Hillsong

Just wanna share a simple message to everyone out there.
Hmm, from what I've learnt, there are 4 kinds of love.

1)Agape - It refers to the unconditional and selfless love for a person. Usually towards your family. Its like a parental love. This love can be displayed by your parents, and most importantly, shown by God.

2)Phileo - It refers to "brotherly love". Like brothers for life, etcetc. Going through thick and thin with your close friends no matter what happens.

3)Eros - A love relationship with the "other" half of yours. Like husbands and wife have.

4)Storge - Refers as a general term to describe the love between exceptional friends, and the desire for them to care compassionately for one another.


Hmm, just wanna focuse more on the first love. Which is the Agape shown by Jesus Christ. As Im self reflecting right now, I couldn't imagine how much pain He bore when He was crucified on the cross. Although He didn't deserve that treatment, He still love us very very dearly.
If you could really understand what i meant, it means that you'll live for Jesus, showing christ towards everyone.. Even the most outcasted classmate, you'd still accompany that person, make that person feel welcome.
If you have faith in Jesus, He will provide.
And yes, i agree its life changing towards everyone that receives him.
I see gangsters taking off their ear studs, quitting smoking, earning a honest living.

Oh my, I can't believe Im actually blogging about such issues. But yeah, I guess i have to say what i need to voice out. Hope you guys won't feel offended anything.
This is just my point of view of life.
So yup, the best way to pull through difficult moments is to cling tightly onto Him.

Oh well. Sometimes i feel that blogging about what happen throughout the day is redundant.
Yeah, because it makes no sense to brag about life to anyone who reads the blog.
Don't you agree folks?
Why not blog about something that is really really meaningful and motivational huh.
So yeah. Right now, I'll try to blog what I think its encouraging to the reader.

Peace.

Sunday - 7th june

Hmm. Attended the first service at "The City Church"!
Reached church at about 8.45am. Everything was done up so nicely.
Did greeters duty..
Pastor Dan shared about the people in church acting as a living stone.
Everyone is responsible for the whole ministry. Not only the leaders. EVERYONE.
Yeah. It was a great kick start for the new church I guess.
Stones being joint together, we are one whole strong congregation of the building.

Service ended, Po Tai followed me home first. Changed to slackky outfit and headed to bugis.
Met Meng Yun and Jason haha. Shopped around, bought 2 berms from street.
Aftr that, Po Tai left us.
Meet up with the rest of 1R02 at bedok. Oh well, actually it was only like 9 of us.

Headed towards East Coast Park. Some skate, some cycle, Meng Yun and I slacked at burger king. Michelle and Jeremy came after that. Started play frisbee inside BK.
Kids right? haha.

It was 7 alr. Everyone was tired from their activities.. Jason, Wei Lin and Kellyann were tired from Cycling. Pamela, Kaye and Skater ken were tired from Skating. While Michelle, Jeremy, Mengyun and I were tired from BITCHING. LAWLS.

Decided to head back to Bugis for steamboat after the discussion and arguements.

Not bad right. Stuffs ended at about 10pm.
BITCHING, LAUGHING AND EATING were what we all did.

Its Saturday.

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write
over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have
for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Only Hope - Mandy Moore


Oh well, nothing much to blog about. Just find this song very meaningful.

Going for combine meeting later on at the new church.
Hope it would be a meaningful meeting later on.














Wow. Hmm, back from the meeting.
Terry shared about the 2 definations about being a christian and a disciple.

The name christian is merely a "position" and a "name", saying that you're a believer of him.
Being a disciple means, being able to follow and live like the way Jesus did.
Going to church alone doesn't make you a passionate Jesus lover.
You need to learn about the word, putting the words into action. Thats what makes you a true christian. Doing the right stuff even if there is no one watching.

With the actions you've done, you're showing christ-like to others. Rather than using words to encourage friend how know Jesus would change your life, you're using actions to show how the works of God have changed you.
ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.

Lord, this is what i wanna show towards my classmates and friends around me.
I'll study hard, produce excellent results. A testimony for Your name, Your glory.
Even when Im facing the darkest part of my life, I will still be clinging close
to Your arms. Because I know, there's no love that can be compared to Yours.

LAST PAPER TMR AH.

KANA, LAST PAPER TMR. Study till sick sia. Got flu, a lil sore throat and stuff like that.. My goodness.
Today's retail accouting paper was manageable too.
Ended the paper like 9.23am.
But decided to respect the paper, stayed on till 10am. Oh well, 2 wrongs on the mcq.
The rest of the paper shouldn't be a prob lol.
Tmr's last paper~ Marketing woots.

Studied from like 11am++ till 4pm with weilin and wenqin.
Are we nerds or what? Everyday study study like 5hours in school lol.
Ate kuay chup at mensa after studying, went home after that.


Hmm. on the way home on the bus, there was this guy in a uniform. He was running after bus servic no.8 lol. But was unable to catch the bus at the first bus stop.. So he decided to chase after the bus with his heavy sch bag from the first stop the the second one. The distance was like 300metres.
Wow, i was inspired by his determination to hop on the bus.
Finally, he managed to board that bus. Clap claps.

Somehow God spoke to me heh. It was like, clinging on to him even though we are
facing hardships at times. The reward would be great at the end of day.
By clinging on to him, we would have the motivation to do anything..
Be it studies, relationships, work, friends.
As long as we hold on, we would reap what we sow.

ABCDEFG.

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

[Chorus]
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It's easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It's easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)

Easier to Run - Linkin Park

Lol, POM was manageable :) Added a lot of extra details to make time pass.

After that, studied in the library with Wenqin, Weilin, Jacq and Kaye.
Kaye and Jacq went off first.. While the rest of us studied till like 5.30pm.
Went Mensa to eat lol. Haven't beeen eating the salad bar's western food for like 7 days alr haha. FINALLY LOL. There was no queue, shiok shiok.
Went home after that.





I remembered those days back then. 14th Feb 2007.
Rushed down to heartland mall to pick the flowers up. Headed down to your school.. Waited for you outsde. Finally, you came out with your friends.
It was quite embarassing when I actually passed the flowers to you. It had the bear with a phrase, "I love you" whn you squeeze it.
Everyone was like staring at us. Luckily I didnt blush or anything lol. Even remembered you passed the flowers to Louise. And someone that passed by asked if that flower was for her.

Another day that I remembered was when we quarrelled over your health. It was during the december hols 2007 if I didn't remember wrongly. You were sick and kept playing maple -.- Either you were forced by En or what lol.
And I reached lavender at about 6pm, wanted to apologize for being such a busybody.. Hoping that you'd come down and patch stuffs up.
Waited and waited, called up Clarence, asked where you were roughly staying at. So that I could do melt those little hundreds of candles on the ground of your void deck and formed a sentence that says smth like, "I'm Sorry, please forgive me".
Waited for 6 hours already, its 12am -.- . No bus home, no train home. In the end, cabbed home with disappointment. Spent quite a lot on the candles, plus the bloody cab fare too -.-
Hmm, I'd wonder how sweet would it be if you could see the lighted candles of words.
Lol wasted huh.

Haha, how naive and foolish i was. These foolish memories will always be kept :)
Just wanna say, thank you once again. You really helped me a lot in many ways.
As a friend, yeah, Im always there for you :)
Hope today's O level chinese paper was manageable for you.
All the best for O's, get into a good JC if you can.