Reliance.

And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light

Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky

God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
Can't be outdone
It can't out matched
It can't be outrun

& yes, we can't rely on our human strength alone. Because of our sin nature.
No amount of great works can earn our salvation. But only by believing in His name, commission and commandment.

We've all grown up.

Had a great night on friday itself.
Mum, sis, grandma and I were at Capella Hotel, somewhere @ Sentosa itself.
Things there really made the atmosphere so romantic at night. Dim lights, candles and stuff. Hahaha.

I was studying at the balcony, there was another group of party goers over the other side. At first they sounded like teenagers, but from the kind of contents that they were chatting about, probably they are in the late 20s or so.

The bond between them was steadfast and united. One of them was going to get married, and that girl was so scared, anxious in a sense that she'd be part of the guy's family in time to come.

So all of the 5 or 4 girls broke out in tears, together with the one who was getting married. They sang along with the songs that the playlist was taking them, drinking wine + cheers-ing with all the best wishes to that particular lucky lady I suppose? Hmmm, its pure admiration. How I wished BFL could always be like this at all times.

Back to those days in secondary school, even primary schools, girls weren't any distraction to us. Nothing to fear because we were all still young and immature. Remember the times we played marble during recess during primary school recess time, rushing as far as our legs could carry towards the table tennis courts for reservation.

But oh wells, as time goes on, everyone have their specific interest and would gradually fade away, little by little.
Thank God we did quite a number of exciting stuffs together, maybe one of the best outings we had was the Brisbane trip where 10 of us were there ALONE IN THE APARTMENT. We cooked our own stuffs, buy our own groceries and such.

Anyhow, time has really changed. Really lost the touch with some bros that I've knew. We're all scattered into different polys, different perceptions in life, different kind of pursuit and lifestyles already. HAHAHA ITS SO COOL THAT NONE OF US WENT TO A COLLEGE.

Just let these memories keep close to our hearts.
We've grown up, we're no longer kids.
Its a part and parcel of life.

The Promontory :)

Tonight was one of the very few nights that I appreciated throughout this year.
Josh and I were at Marina Boulevard, just chilling out.
Fireworks were being showcased and I felt it was BEAUTIFUL.
We could see couples embracing one another, along the rims of the barrier. (awwwwwwwwwww)

Well, it was simply just one of the most cheesy night that I've ever experienced.
The night's atmosphere was really reposed and tranquilized. Plus the thorough streets of Marina Boulevard was revamped. Haha I could just go on and on..

Hmm, caught Alarice's performance at 9pm. In terms of her makeup, I felt that her lips were a little too red, and it was quite distracting in a sense haha. Nevertheless, she managed to pull an amazing performance for the audience @ the Promontory.
At first Josh couldn't understand why I was so enthu about Alarice and her songs. Partly because he didn't knew who she was. But yeah, in the end he himself became a fan of her. LOLS.

Well, she sang like 9 songs:

Midnight Train
Colour
Don't stop believing (By Glee, I supposed)
Faith
Sunday Afternoon
Away
First Dance
Man in the Mirror (Micheal Jackson)
Part the Seas

Among all, I enjoyed "First Dance" the most. I felt that she did connect her body, mind and soul with it. Somehow within that song itself, she managed cover an entire love story. Ok maybe Im just exaggerating about it hahaha.
Trained home after the performance was over :)

First Dance

Lol, couldn't really take a close shot of her. Because I was quite far away. Hmm, the buffering could take a moment.. So yeah :x

Wash it away.

Feel the wave crash beneath my feet and the sand between my toes.
Lets feel the wind on the palm of our hands, let it move through my fingers.
We'll try for miles from coast to cost and leave all our worries behind.
Away from it all, away from the noise.
Just you and I.

Knowing where we belong.

She flew out the door, to follow her call.
To a place faraway, where it might lead her astray.
Never to forget where she belong,
Clinging onto the chorus of that song.

I think I have the tendency to blog at such wee, retarded hours?
Hahaha, maybe somehow it serves as a form of inspiration.

Well, went to some pub at Marriot hotel to find my dad.
He was with his colleagues. Well, I'm cool with the noisy atmosphere over there. Felt more like a club rather than a pub setting though.

Supposedly it should be a joyous occasion because IN JUST A DAY his mate earned ten thousand bucks . Yes, $10,000 SGD.
Unfortunately, Uncle Chris' customer ain't happy with his financial service skills because the price of the stock rosed by 10cents after the stocks were sold off.
An opportunity cost of $300,000 SGD for the client was lost?

This is the life of every passionate sales person, stock broker, financial advisor. The main objective is to satisfy the client with the service provided. And somehow Uncle Chris was damn sad.
The spirit of inability to produce a thorough and wonderful result was taking root in his heart.

This is the problem with human's nature. We tend to find the cheapest deal available, and strive to maximise the profits within the budget given. We're never contented with what we have. Maybe this is the reason why the client isn't very pleased with him.

It just voice down to the bottom line, knowing where we belong.
As long as we've done our best of ability in that work, we should feel contented with the results we received no matter what.

Haha, well its easier to be said than done though.
But it's possible isn't it? :)

Maybe redemption has stories to tell,
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell.
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here.

Forever is nothing.

Its lust that brought us together,
But love that keeps us forever.

Come to think of it, I don't really agree with the phrase, "Love at first sight."
I think its all bullshit lolol.

A year has passed so quickly.
And I missed the times of quarrelling.
Especially on the topic of my posture.
Reminding me not to hunch.

Parents.

He was running right beside me, his hand holding on me tight.
Trusted by setting me free, ensuring everything is alright.

Pacing down the aisle, I was looking all around.
Falling down again, hurt and blood was what I've found.

We tend to fall, we tend to bleed. We learn from our mistakes.
We'll have scars, so we'll remember about it.

School's semester has ended.
Somehow it seems everything was pacing too fast.
No doubt shit happens, but I really enjoyed the experiences.

Was looking at an adult's facebook profile just now.
Pictures and such that were taken by him was really cool.
He liked taking shots of his little daughter. Boasting so much about her.
I stand amazed at the tenacity of love he has for her.
Every child is the pride of the Father.

I believe every parents would love their children to strive for the best.
And thats why it hurts them SO, SO, SO MUCH when they see their children "fall".

BWG.

That pinnacle moment, when I've opened the door.
It felt worse than having a break up for that instant.

Everyone was actually seated.
Gave me the stares, went down to the lecturer.
"Please leave the room."

Well, didn't stop reproaching myself about how dumb was I.
Maybe ignorance was the word.

Came down to a conclusion.
No matter how strong willed, how tough our personality are,
having a helping hand from our friends is indespensable.

Expectations

You seemed to find the dark, when everything is bright.
You look for all thats wrong instead of all that's right.
Does it feel good to you, to rain on my parade?
You never say a word, unless it is to complain.

I think penning down thoughts at 4.45am is retarded. LOL.

Slept through from 10pm till about 3am in the morning today.
Well, felt kinda refreshed anyway.

Sometimes we tend to get emotional over stuffs that doesn't really matter to us.
It could be the high expectations that we've always wanted, or an objective that we wanna achieve.
And when things don't go in our way, the blow is quite fatal to us. hahaha.

Anyhow, One80 gathering yesterday was amazing.
We didn't gather at the 9th floor as usual but instead at the 6th.
The enclosed area there were quite "botak" in a sense due to the lack of furnitures.
It causes the echo while speaking, and even clapping!

Bottom line was about John 10:10, the devil has come to kill, steal and destroy our lives by messing it up with the distractions and entertainment of this world.
But it also stated that Jesus has also came down to provide a life of abundance for those who follow His standards.

The harvest is plentiful, but the labourers are few.