This dedication tonight.

Dear mum,

Recently I've been doing a lot of reflection lately. I've realised that there are no amount of gratitude that I can ever express to thank you for all that you've done. 

I know I haven't been the best that I can be. I know that there are a lot of blindspots that have made you felt so disappointed. Looking back, I am really apologetic for what I've said the other time in the month of February. 

All I want to do in my life is to serve God, to be an image just like Jesus that will be the intercessor, a testimonial to everyone that there will be someone out there to make a difference in this current, this dark black society. 

I know that right now, you have been slogging your soul out to raise sis and I up. But I just wanna let you know that, the pain and burden that you have been carrying all these years will all come to an end really soon. As much as you want to provide the best of life to me, I've not been successful in many ways to reciprocate in a way to make you feel appreciated. 

As much as a human, I will do my very best as a son, to make it all up to you real soon. Rest assured things will be a 180degree turn and you will definitely reap what you have sowed in my life. 

Thank you so much for being there for be despite the countless disappointments. That's really something unconditional that you have portrayed and I'm utmost appreciative about it. The reason why I'm typing all these thoughts out tonight it's because I am in no position to make this speech to you in person for now. 

May this entry be a testimony, an evidence in the future, a life goal that I've been pitching myself to achieve. In time to come, I will be able to say all these much to you personally, eventually.

Signing off,
K.