The things that keep you alive.

Recently I've been drowning in thoughts and doing some soul searching again. Although right now I'm stuck in camp cause of a weekend duty, it somehow made me realized that there's so much stuffs to learn.

Well, I just wanna say whenever you're feeling lost in life, there's bound to have a retrieval cue to pull you back. We just gotta find it back and keep the fire going on.

Life is beautiful because there's up and downs in life. Remember that there's God, waiting out there for you to hold Him close. Love your family and cherish your love ones that you've found.

Knowing that we've someone to rely on, we'll actually find that living in this society ain't that painful afterall :)

The tourniquets in our lives

Regardless how knowledgeable we are, there are many things in life that we gotta learn. In this society, we based our judgement mainly on the surface. Unless explained, we'll never know why and how certain things happen for a reason.

Our interpersonal skills, the way we express ourselves, can be considered as one of the main qualities in which people gauge how successful and respectable one is. I was just reminded that not everyone have this quality in them.

I guess there're certain stuffs that can't be force, and there's certain stuffs that takes time to be adapted. No doubt that human are wired in ways that may be weak in certain qualities, but I believe we can always work towards it.

When still waters run deep.

I haven't been penning my thoughts down for the past few months. But since I guess today's the "last day" to live on earth, it's time to crack some cells and put my brains to work.

I've just been thinking about the word, "strive". This word, could mean 2 things. Either you're working hard to excel, or trying to make ends meet just to survive.

You see, we often strive for the things we desire and not so much for the things we really need. The society has taught us about the importance of reputation as an idol in our lives. Our lives are based upon pride issues, expectations from the society and other materialistic stuffs.

Such performance traps makes us overlook certain stuffs, and eventually living life aimlessly. It's really true that it's always the simple things we do in life that we treasure the most. That's because there's no materialistic elements in it.

What matters most in our lives are the stuffs that runs deep in us. Thoughts that we don't really show to the society. Something that we always yearned for since our childhood days. Those are the hopes that were dashed as we mature in this society.

Some scars are present in our lives to make us fall. But whereas there's some to make us stronger.

Thin line.

There's a fine line of difference between ignorance and stupidity. These 2 terms, in my opinion, are classified based on the action's intention.

Stupidity are actions you do while knowing the consequences behind it. Like for example, self-suicidal. Whereas ignorance could cause an uneventful scenario to happen without anyone wanting it to happen. Sometimes shit just happens in a spur . 

I really despise comments made by people when they themselves do not understand the full picture. "oh well he only got himself to blame for being too reckless." "oh gosh never let stupidity get the better of you".

To my understanding, an accident happens because of an action with hidden blind spots. If one should really judge a person for his/her action, they should really assess the agenda of it before making any sort of comment. It just shows how shallow minded a person could be. Without actually empathizing, non-constructive comments such as this actually turns people off. 

Your turning point.

Just a little question, perhaps a rhetorical one: Is there a point of time in your life when you felt it's time to have a change of lifestyle?

I was by the park again in the early afternoon, just chilling with a cup of sugarcane and some music from my phone. Saw this little asian caucasian baby with his grandpa taking him out on a stroll. He looked at me with his little blue eyes, and yeah. Truth, happiness and authenticity was what I saw in his soul.

Ever remembered the beliefs that you held on so dearly when you were a toddler before? And only to realize that your dreams were crushed as you grow older in the system of this world.

There are many retrieval cues that changes our lives drastically. But it really depends on how our worldviews rest upon the current situation. It could either make or break you adversely.

No doubt we all have our defining moments in all walks of life. But ultimately it's really up to us whether we wanna be a catalyst in this world, that is, make a difference in the society.

Walking the talk.

Did a 2 hours reflection by the park just now. Realized that there are still many more things that I needa learn. No doubt I've been confine in an enclosed area for 17 days, but I guess I appreciated the time I had during that period.

The highlight during this period, were the values that I've learned. Which is, to cherish the things that I have that's around me. And since I'm gonna spend the 2 years over here, I guess making the best out of it would be the best & only option that I'm gonna take.

In the civilian world, it's kinda typical of someone to think that being in the army would be equating to, defending our country. To be honest, there's more to it. It's more about defending in something you believe in dearly. & that's my family, my love ones. No doubt in the army we'll lose a little bit of touch from the life we used to have that's comfortable, but ultimately it teaches us to be strong.

With regards to defending something, it might not be literally holding weapons as safety mechanisms. But it may also refer to something like standing firm in what you believe adamantly all along. Respect does not comes as and when you like. Nonetheless, it comes from what you've achieved.

The difference.

Well there's one thing that I was reminded of recently. "You can't love a stranger one bit." & if you've ever came across with a thought of wanting to know someone, that's called infatuation.

Many of us are actually blinded by the system of the world. God gave us eyes. & yet its quite hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind.

2 Corinthians 4:18 : 'So we fixed on eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but that is unseen is eternal.'

In this case, patience is key in a relationship. Understanding one another's likings & dislikes. Understanding one another's strength and weaknesses. And most importantly, understanding one another's heart.