Regardless.

Hope decays,
Generation disappears
Washed away
As a nation simply stares

Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away
And now there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking

All you ever wanted,
Was someone to truly look up to you.
& six feet underwater, I do.



Have you seen the flaws already?
Would you still accept the imperfection state of a human despite seeing through it?

Actually, it's all on purpose.
Why? It's because we all need to know the truth. This sets apart a novelty feeling and true emotions are.

With things going on like this, somehow it feels like the road is heading towards a jagged surface.

It's just hearts.

When all I want is for you to see
The side that I don’t show to anyone
In fear that they may turn and run
Alone and incomplete
No more tears to cry
No more blood to bleed.

Today was the end of presentation. Sigh of relief.. But yet, still countless of things running through my mind.

I swear I'm gonna miss the computer lab in school.. Throughout this 3 years in poly, at least 50% of the time spent in the computer labs.

We're gonna graduate within a week already.. So many things left unsaid, so many things left undone.

Maybe somehow if things aren't meant to be yours, it will never be.
Face it.

Senseless Novelty.

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you, dear

Louder, louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak, I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

This songs reminds me of the commitments in life.

What else more when your friends are brewing up a love novelty in your life? It is fun and exciting to be part of a love story. But what if things don't succeed?

Looking at things STATISTICALLY, relationship wise at this current phase is really tough to maintain. Things just come and go.

Sometimes we don't really need to be in a love-relationship to be loved. But like what they all say, to experience and be experienced in it.

On my knees.

The pastor was talking about having wisdom in life.

"A good outcome is always better than a good income"

I was reminded about this phrase that was mentioned 3 years ago.

& my eyes were closed. I found myself kneeling down at the fountain of life. When I looked up, it was Jesus. And he said with those beautiful eyes, "Son, drink this water of life, and you will be blessed with the wisdom that you need."

Some people say money can't buy happiness. But I beg to differ. Because I believe that in this world, money, is one of the key to happiness.

Because of financial problems, marriage lives are broken.
Because of financial problems, people start robbing.
Because of financial problems, parents sell their kids to those industries.

All these outcomes were never meant to happen. None of these events were ever desirable in the eyes of man.

This is because we're living in this world where money defines our social status, our standard of living, etc.

But there is one thing we all need to have. We need the wisdom.

Which is, never to worship the riches.

The different facets of our life.

When you feel you're alone, cut off from this cruel world.
Your instincts tell you to run
Listen to your heart, those angel voices,
They'll sing to you, they'll be your guide back home

When life leaves us blind
Love keeps us kind
It keeps us kind.

Your agenda.

I open my lungs to breathe in forgiveness and love
Haunting me now reminders of how I used to be
And on down the road my troubles are sure to follow.
Looking out the window, the hell if I know where I will go
So I'll just keep on driving.

It really lies in your intentions.
Despite the outcome, regardless if its an optimistic or pessimistic nature, it all voice down to your perceived desire.

Will a rich man offer thousands of bills to charity be more valuable than a little school kid emptying his little money pouch to the tissue paper uncle?

At times we tried to do well in life, perhaps in studies in this case. But the tension within the social circle becomes stronger. We lose friends, or maybe, we don't even have the chance to nurture the relationship at all.

It whatever we do, there will always be an inverse force working through our way. But to succeed, we have to fight against that opposing current inevitably.

Childhood phases.

What should you do, think, react & plan when you're faced with tonnes of stress, expectations, family issues at this hour?

When you know you've still a long long way ahead before you hit on that final bed and tell yourself "all is well, I've lived life without any regrets".

I believe that your childhood days forms the core of your personality no matter what comes after that. It's because when we're young, we're innocent & therefore hold on to that promise dearly.

We're most gullible and innocent when we're young. But when forces of the opposing site comes into our lives, we've learned that fairy tales and all are full of bull.

A child with a disadvantage family background will always be on the extreme ends when he/she grows up.

Either a dog or a catalyst in the society.

Being a dog in the society means growing up to be a useless piece of shit because they reminisce on their bad experiences when they were young. They have no confidence in life, no goals, no nothing. They stray away, being part of the dump because of excessive self-pitying.

When one is done being fooled, pushed around, etc. They become the latter. All they wanna do is not living a life that allows bad history from repeating.

When shit just happens in your life, you'll just gotta pull yourself up and move forward. Just remember that there will always be mountain high experiences and valley low, something like a roller coaster ride.