Happy ever after?

Just got back from a wedding dinner.
Yup, they're a loving couple. Its their big day.

While travelling towards orchard. I was listening to the radio. This DJ from 98.7fm was talking about her love life. Talking about how hard she struggled with the r/s she had.

She said, "Back then, we knew our chance of being tgt till the end was zero. But we fought real hard together. Unfortunately after 2 years, gravity pulls us down back to earth once again. My guy's parents didn't accepted me because of religeon."

Maybe unequally yoke couples will last till marriage, but their life after that wouldn't be as complete as a whole. Because of different ideologies, morals would be weighed differently.
And because of that, couples quarrel everytime.

9 more days to midsem. Are we ready for it guys?

Deep wounds don't heal.

Had a bad day today.
Fucked up family.
Living in a place of agony.
Deep cuts won't heal, deep hurt somehow kills.

Anyhow, I love this feeling of loneliness.
However, striving for the best wouldn't bring much happiness.

Its just like, its me and the world alone.
Trampled and dismissed in a big fucking zone.

Although its something that I can cope,
But life within me has lost its hope.

This walk alone with God.

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.

So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...
Never gonna be alone.
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
Never gonna be alone.
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know.

Never gonna be alone.
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.


Projects are piling up once again. Yup, everyone is gonna feel the stress. So no point bragging about it.
13 more days to mid-semestral exams. Reasonable grades? Hope so.
M' so gonna walk this path with God alone.

Its good to dwell on the past, the good times that is. But its inevitable to face the reality one day.

Change is the only constant thing in this world.

I think I've lost interest in blogging already. hahaha.
Although many thoughts have been running through in my mind lately, I'd just backspace the things I've typed. Or, couldn't be bothered to blog..

Maybe life is only this long. But I guess the afterlife would be eternal. Been researching on "Euthanasia" throughout this whole week for the upcoming test on monday. Seriously, I think im gonna fail damn badly if Im doing this topic. Euthanasia simply means, taking lives on those who are simply helpless on the hostpital bed, or lives that are of no value. This is a super sad topic to write about. But it would definitely increase my exposure about life.

Maybe my summary of poly life would be :
-Lonliness
-Growing in the word of Christ
-Used to the stress level
-Ready for NS
-Went through different kinds of situations
-Learned a lot through past experience.
-Enjoyed the times I had with my close poly mates.

Grats to all O level students~ All the best for the result taking in January :)

Refreshed.

This alabaster jar is all I have of worth
I break it at Your feet, Lord, it's less than You deserve
You're far more beautiful, more precious than the oil
The sum of my desires and the fullness of my joy
Like You spilled Your blood, I spill my heart
As an offering to my King

Here I am, take me as an offering
Here I am, giving every heartbeat for Your glory
Take me

This time that I have left is all I have of worth
I lay it at Your feet, Lord, it's less than You deserve
And though I've little strength, and though my days are few
You gave Your life for me so I will live my life for You

Like You spilled Your blood, I spill my heart
As an offering to my King

Here I am, take me as an offering
Here I am, giving every heartbeat for Your glory
Here I am, take me as an offering
Here I am, giving every heartbeat for Your glory, take me

Worthy, worthy, You are worthy, worthy is the Lord
Worthy, worthy, You are worthy, worthy is the Lord
Here I am, take me as an offering
Here I am, giving every heartbeat for Your glory
Here I am, take me as an offering
Here I am, giving every heartbeat for Your glory
Take me.

Alabaster Jar - Gateway worship

Shall blogged about yesterday. Headed for cellgroup ytd.
Had games.. Everything went smoothly..
When Praise and worship session started, everything started building up and when this song, "Alabaster Jar" was being played, I broke down and cried because the presence was too much for me to take.

While connecting with God, I noticed that the lyrics was so meaningful.. Its about this lady carrying this jar of oil, offering to Jesus Christ. In the past, oil was considered to be a very valuable substance to anyone. And yet, the lady offered something to Christ that pricked her heart.
It was really a wake up call for me during these 2 months, to move on with time. Don't dwell in the places of sad memories but, move on with God. For He has a greater plan for everyone.

Giving up something for God that really mean a lot to you is difficult. But sometimes it does not mean that you're weak, its just that you're strong enough in the word of God to let it go.
So, I'll hope that placing my trust in Him would be the best solution I'll take, and never to regret it.

Emotions affects our eating diet.

Its been around 2 months or so since I really blogged.
Well, just a summary of my poly hols are like :
-Dota
-Eat
-Dota till early in the morning
-Wake up late in the afternoon
-Church
-Going out with Brothers.. Friends..
-Basically, wasting my life away.

Made the effort to meet up with Jacq and Wen Qin last saturday. (First time meeting up with poly mates!)

Today, its the real start of will power. Woke up at 7am.. Came home at 8pm.
School started 9am, ended at 7pm for me.. Its like, 10hours of school for me.
Plus 2 hours of travelling time ( Back and flow to Home and school).
10+2=12 HOURS OMGGG.

I bet my life is going to be interesting with the stress Im gonna face in weeks to come. Having 6 modules right now,
I felt its quite difficult to have a balance timetable for everything that I own.
Oh well, maybe I should just chill and take 1 step at a time.

Right now, its the start of the sem.. And yeah, the stress level is gonna build up soon too.

Aim for sem 1.2 :
GPA : 3.8 , C-GPA : 3.7
Is this possible to achieve? Yes ONLY if complacency does not take root in my heart and being hardworking. Plus, THERE IS NO COMPUTER MODULE TO PULL ME DOWN. LOL.

I guess everyone is smart enough to achieve anything that they dream for. The key to success is having a positive attitude in any area of our lives.

SECULAR!

Everytime - Britney Spears

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting meI guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clearWhat have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to flyI fall without my wings
I feel so smallI guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting meI guess I need you baby.


Its quite a sad song. Yet it applies to some at times.