Walking out.

There're 2 things in life that never fails to brighten up my day. First is a cup of coffee (sugarless). And next, a can of heineken beeeeer.

Don't really agree much with people who hate these 2 beverages. Though it might taste bitter and all, but somehow appreciating stuffs like this really enables me to associate things in different perspective.

After church service, Marc and I went for a lunch date with Auntie Kim. It was really an eye opener for me.

Well, most of the time, the both of us were just aunt kim’s listening ear.
She's at least 60 years of age, had little confidence in speaking, fluency problems etcetc. Despite all these drawbacks, she speaks with sincerity and command. & emotions were flowing out of the conversations as well.

Bottom of my heart, I really do believe that such moments are priceless. You can't really engage a long-conversation easily with an elderly person anywhere, anytime when you're outside.

But in church, we have the privilege to do so. Bringing a smile out of the cracks in their lives, generally gives anyone a sense of joy and satisfaction. & it was really an honour for an elderly to invite us along to a small gathering/lunch appointment.

Teenagers, youths. We all aim for the tangible stuffs, the conscious, the obvious. But often leave out the wiser words, the bigger picture of life.

Inspire not with your intentions, but with the understanding.

Perhaps there's no reciprocation.
Perhaps its anachronism.

Somewhere only we know.

Just got back from MBS.
Got a little sick of mugging at home. So i've decided to take a tour with the rest of my notes at MBS.

Otw there was retarded because I've seen so many elderly people heading their way down to the casino. Somehow it's the addictions that tears a family apart..

Okay nevertheless, I really enjoyed the atmosphere there.
The lightings @ night in the mall actually plays a huge psychological impact in customers. With the various accent lightings and all, they've managed to create a contrast of shadows and dim lights along the various aisles. Hence this generate some sort of interest and anticipation while walking ard the mall with a posh and exclusive impression.

Lol, I personally feel that learning stuffs in retail is more like a leisure, wider exposure of life to me. Concepts we've learned could only bring the subconscious factors that attracts people into the stores, to our conscious. Making it obvious to prevent impulse purchases, etcetc. (save money lolllllll)

& nothing more hahaha.

The highlight of my midnight tour..

This was taken right outside Bay Sand's shopping mall.
You know where there are wooden platforms, where water fountains (whatever you call that) is on the move, along with the projection to create a "slide show".

It was 1.30am & there were no souls around there. The atmosphere was deserted, yet beautiful. Really took off some pressures in life, all the ambitions, all the desires, all the shits. (For the moment only i suppose hahaha)
It's like thinking of nothing, and just solely appreciating what the visual effects had brandished.

Life can offer a whole lot of positive affections as compared to the negative. But often we choose to focus on the rational.. Making life miserable and all.

Cabbed home at about 2.10am.

Lies.

I know that theres no turning back
if we put too much light on this we'll see through all the cracks
let's stay in the dark one more night
don't want to know
I'm okay with this silence
it's truth that I dont want hear

Sometimes the truth hurts, but at least, the intentions are known.

Mindset.

The sunlight, warm me and penetrate these broken bones.
Windows are frozen, they lock me out of a life I know.
And my eyes are bleeding, cause I learn to see in the blackest night

The 3 of us, had a little food festival over dinner, known as "the reunion dinner".
Hmmm, though there was a wide spread of sumptious food on the table, somehow along the line i realized that there's something missing.

I was just browsing through facebook earlier and I came across this picture:

Out of the blue, couldn't help but a drop of tear just rolled down my cheek. Only such beautiful context melts my heart, lollllll.

It's because we all seek for affiliation in many different ways.

Many of times we're conditioned to such stimulus that yearns for warmth. So much that makes our hearts become hardened when we have the insufficient. Put it in a simpler term, hearts that became numb.

We don't feel the pain no more because we've decided to keep those memories back into our unconscious.

& the only way to conquer this little self-pity mindset is to challenge against these painful memories.

Psalm 27:10 "Even if my father and mother abandon me, the Lord will hold me close."

I believe that there is no need to indulge in disparity because such situation brings life to the other side of the coin.

We become stronger & tougher, just like a brand new skin known as, scars.

complementary traits.

Had sort of a reunion dinner with bros last nighttt. Unfortunately half of them weren't there. Lol, what a waste.

Nevertheless, the moments we had were priceless. Had loads of valuable conversations and all.
I didn't knew that sky garden @ esplanade was that romanticccc. Hahaha gay night.

Ever heard before the word "bromance"? I love the word. But yet again, b-romance means BEFORE-ROMANCE as well.

So yeah, when we're all grown up, we'll distance with one another sooner or later. Life moves on just like this hehe.

Memories are permanent snapshots stucked in our head. We'll only forget when we don't reflect over them constantly.

Reminisce on those that are worth it, leave the rest all in the unconscious :)

Go all out.

Now that we're here, so far away.
All the struggles that we thought was in vain.
All the mistakes, one life contained.
They all finally start to fade away.

What I've learned for the past few phases in school was all meaningful.
Too many interesting shits happen every now and then.

& I realized that, the greatest failure ain't failing at things you aren't good at. But achieving in things that don't matter at the end of the day.

Why? Doing the things that doesn't satisfy us is plain stupid. Conforming to the standards of the world just because of peer acceptance, is a total bull.

Because of affiliation, we compromise. Because of the veneer recognition that we wanna attain in the eyes of man, we inflate our accomplishments. Because of the pressures of the world, we hold back to prevent being judged.

We forsake our motto in life, too much.

Bottom line is, fight for the things that you want, not the things that you should.

Worldviews.

You whispered that you were getting tired.
Got a look in your eye,
tells me like its goodbye.
So hold on to your secrets tonight.
Lie to me and tell me that we're gonna be alright,
and lie to me and tell me that we'll pull through the night.


A little reflection over the jap's trip.
The best moments weren't Disney, weren't the group gatherings, weren't the snow.

But it's at..
Starbucks. Alone. While the rest went shopping LOL.
Weird isn't it? hahahaha.
It was around 11 degree celcius at that moment. Decided to take a chill pill outside the store instead of enjoying the warmth inside.

Looked up and saw this beautiful view across the avenue:

Atmosphere was calm yet certain.
Everything felt so right and peaceful. The only sounds made were the railway tracks, foot steps of the crowd walking pass the store and the strong winds brushing the leaves of the trees.

This was taken at Shinkuju, one of the busiest district in Tokyo. Countless of shops and offices. Times Square, Takashimaya is the huge building on the left, and the one of the right.. Ain't really sure whats the name of that clock tower hahaha.

I realised that. There's a vast difference between our naked eye and cameras can capture. Sometimes being present in that particular scenery brings individuals to another realm. But when snapshots of pictures are taken by tools like the camera, it no longer feels the same.

Yet again.. with the aid of equipments, we could see micro-bacterias that our naked eyes can't.

Humans in general, expect a lot in life. So much so that one takes things for granted as always. Events and all becomes boring, in search of exclusive materialistic desires that will satisfy them temporarily.

Lol, Christmas season for example? So many people ranting off their fbs statuses on how lonely and pathetic their lives are without a special somebody(steadies maybe) to celebrate with.

Gotta look into the 'micro' of life instead of the 'macro' at times.